Snow anyone?

It's very exciting!! Snow in the forecast! Of course I've heard many forecasts telling us to expect snow at different times but that's to be expected!! I was downtown today and when I looked towards the hills the snow line is getting lower!!

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!!

WOW!! I just noticed the Weather forecast on The Weather Network says a low temp of -20 C for Wed!! That's COLD!!!! Brrrr........

Why do I do this to myself?

I started feeling halfway human yesterday afternoon, so last night I pulled out something constructive that needed doing(from the dreaded list) and stayed up WAY to late.

Now I'm exhausted....((((Sigh)))).....

One of those mornings....

I've been not feeling well this week and getting more and more fustrated at what I havn't been getting done. I thought this morning if I sit and make a list of what needs doing by when I'll feel better because I'll feel more organized.

Nope...wrong....Instead it was a sit and look at the list and cry moment. Stupid list. I deleted it.

Christmas stuff, house stuff, baby stuff....and I'm just so tired....Hopfully I'll start to feel better soon and get some energy back. Then everything won't seem so big.

What I really need for Christmas is more space....and organization...and energy.....Sigh.....

Bath time fun.

Christmas Memories

I did a google search about what Christmas means to me. I found many sites with quotes from kids and others about what Christmas meant to them. I was fun to read. It made me reflect about my childhood and Christmas experience.

As far back as I can remember I loved Christmas. My Mom was a single parent(Dad was around...sort of), and I think she worked really hard to make sure I didn't miss out on anything. Looking back I wonder how she managed it all. I hope I can be a fraction that good of Mom to my kids. I loved the decorations, the music, the feeling of joy in the air. I loved baking cookies with my Mom and Grandma, we would make gingerbread houses from scratch! I loved Christmas shopping, the hustle and bustle always excited me(now not so much). I just knew we were going to see family and loved ones we hadn't in awhile. I loved the Christmas Pageant at school and handing out cards to all my friends. We would drive around looking at all the lights, I loved checking out others Christmas trees and spent time looking at all the ornaments. I loved that I got a new dress to wear and that we made gifts for Mom and Dad at school. I loved leaving out cookies for Santa and the anticipation of waiting to see if he was going to come. I remember one night driving home late from a Christmas Eve gathering and I spent the whole drive scouring the sky for a glimpse of Rudolph's glowing red nose, the times we were away from home Christmas morning I worried Santa wouldn't find me. But he always did! I loved going out and picking out our Christmas tree and bringing it home to decorate, carols blaring. Of course now I have a fake tree!! LOL!!

Where was Jesus in all this? Not very present. I wasn't raised in a Christian home. We did though have a variety of Christmas books including the Christmas Story which we read every year. I knew Christmas was Jesus's Birthday but didn't really know the full extent of what that meant. I always had a sense as a child that someone was out there watching me and taking care of me. One morning I watched a televised church program on TV(nothing else on!!) and listened as they talked about how God gave us his only son, and how he watched out for us and took care of us. I thought "oh that's who it is" and they said if you believed you should repeat after them and invite Jesus into my heart, so I did. I didn't realize at the time what that meant, only that it felt right and I knew it was true. So on Christmas I would remember Jesus however briefly and say thank you. I obviously want Jesus to be a much bigger part of our families Christmas.

There was no worry as a child of how we were going to pay for everything, or where we were going to find the time to get everything done. It just happened. I love that for Payton everything is magical with no adult worries, I want that to last as long as possible for her. Eventually she will grow to accept adult responsibilities but not now!! Now I gladly carry all them for her! Which brings me to what Christmas means to me now. But I'm much to tired to write anymore at the moment so that will be part II.

Complaining again

I'm sick. Head achy, congested, tired, Sore throat, achy, yucky sick. :( It shouldn't surprise me as I've been so run down lately. It just hit me suddenly. Payton has also been whiny, mommy attached, and congested. So I don't think she's feeling well either :(

AND

The weather just got nasty!! Raining coming down sideways, wind blowing strong. I DON'T WANT ANOTHER STORM!! I like my power on(whine whine complain complain)

And

I'm out of laundry soap.

Warning: All about Christmas

As I was driving around Sat evening I noticed 3(YES 3) houses with Christmas tree's already up!! So those of us that want to get going on the decorations go for it!! Have no shame!! We aren't the first!!

Do you have favorite Christmas songs? I love so many old carols and new songs but there are a few that take me back to my childhood. Songs I listened to over and over again as a child on my mom's record player(that makes me feel very old). I add new favorites to my list every year but these ones will remain with me forever.

-Roger Whitaker : Momma Mary
-Roger Whitaker : Christmas is here again
-Nana Mouskouri : Old Toy Trains

What about Favorite Christmas Movies? My fav as a child was hands down Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer. I do also love It's a wonderful life.

I've been thinking a lot about what Christmas means to me, past and present. But I need to go clean my kitchen so that will have to be my next post.

What a beautiful day!!

Don't you love it when the weather reports are wrong?? It was beautiful!! No rain, a little wind(which blew away the clouds), and some sunshine!! Imagine that!!

We had a blast! Jordana and Matthew braved the train with us and Rod met us downtown. Payton was beside herself to actually be on a train, she was so worried it was going to leave without us!! Her favorite part of the parade was the dancers, horses, Curious George, and of course Santa!

I have some pictures but they will have to wait until Rod gets home as he took the camera with him.

We are both so exhausted I think tonight will be an early night. I hope this week is a little calmer than last week, I need some catch up rest!!

It's raining....it's pouring.....

the old man is snoring.....


And off we go spend a day downtown Vancouver. Are we crazy? Maybe, but I know for a fact we won't melt!

Grrrr.......

Looks like we won't be going on the train on Sun. I was so looking forward to it. :(

Rod leaves for a work trip that day. He forgot about our plans. It's all booked and they are expecting him Mon morning.

I probably shouldn't be so upset but I've been looking forward to it for so long. I could go without him but we've hardly seen him this week(and he's going to be late again tonight) and then he'll be gone on the trip. I think Payton needs the time with her Dad. And I'm honestly so tired right now I can't even fathom trekking into Van for a day by myself with Payton, especially when it looks like the weather isn't going to be nice.

Sigh.....I think I'm farther into exhaustion, frustration, and overwhelm than I thought.

Well that was fun.....

Well not really!! No power for almost 14 hours with a 2 year old was quite an experience. She thought it was fun for awhile but eventually as the sun went down and she got tired, it just wasn't funny anymore. What do you mean there is no lights? What do you mean I can't watch a show? What do you mean you can't warm up my milk? She was not a happy camper. No power with well water is interesting as well, no power means no water. It's amazing how much more I appreciate being able to flush the toilet, it really is a luxury. I cheered when the power came on.

I'm tired today, this week has been long long long. And it was a short week! Sun we attacked out room, there is still so much to do but at least now we know what has to be done and where everything that needs sorting is. It feels good to have started to make room for the baby. Payton walked into our room on Mon morn and exclaimed "NO MESS!!!", what does that tell you? Mon we went shopping with my mom. It was awesome, we hit Value Village and went from there. She ended up buying a whole bunch of stuff for Payton which she really needed(shoes, coats ect). I can't say how much relief I felt this week when the storm started and I knew I had proper clothes for Payton to wear. Thanks Mom!! You rock. She still needs a really good winter jacket but we have layers for her that will suffice nicely in the meantime. Tues I had Matthew and managed to do a bunch of organizing, wed was the power outage, yesterday I had Payton's Musikids class and the dentist( :p). It's been a go go go week and I'm feeling it. I don't so how it's going to slow down any either being that Christmas is so close! There will continue to be tons that needs doing.

I feel so pregnant. I don't remember feeling so pregnant so early last time. But I tire so easily and feel it in my back and belly already when I need to slow down. Sleeping the last couple nights has already gotten uncomfortable. I feel way bigger at this point than last time but have actually gained less, maybe it's just all out front, I'm not sure.

Well, I think that's enough for whining! I really am looking forward to Christmas and all the festivities that surround it. I love spending time with family and friends. I love looking at the lights and listening to carols. I love the Candle Light parade. We're taking the Santa train into Vancouver and the Rogers Christmas parade on Sun!! I'm very excited to take Payton on the train, I think she's going to have so much fun!! I'm looking forward to making my Christmas Cards. I'm looking forward to the LaFarge Christmas Party, Payton had a blast last year, she's so fun to watch! I've been having fun looking at all the toys, Payton is to young to be asking for anything specific so we get to check everything out and decide what we want to play with, just kidding!!(but we will play!!)

I could go on, but now I'm just killing time and this post has gotten long! I need to go tidy while my kid is sleeping and I have an ounce of ambition left!!

I want to feel Christmas

I want to feel Christmas

by Third Day

I want to feel Christmas
how it used to be
with all of it's wonder
falling on me

the season has felt so empty
oh for quite awhile
I want to feel Christmas like a child

I want to see snowflakes
fall to the ground
my brothers and sisters
all gathered around
singing away in a manger as we sit by a fire
I want to feel Christmas like a child

It's been so long now I can't say,
just when I lost my way
and I'm going back to how it was
like a child
when this day ment everything
we spent our time remembering
the baby child born for us

it's all about Jesus
asleep in the straw
sent from this king
the savior for all
so I don't need bells to be ringing
because I'll join with angels singing Gloria

And I can feel Christmas like a child
I want to feel Christmas like a child(repeated)



Note: I couldn't find the lyrics online anywhere so I typed them out while I listened so they may not be exactly right.

How in the world????

Did we get so much STUFF?

And how did we fit it all in our bedroom?????

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyone want/need?

A cat scratcher/bed in excellent condition?
An almost full bag of Purina Cat chow?
A hardly used foot spa?
A wind up baby swing?

Today.

I love it when the sermon at church seems to talk directly to you. I dreamt last night our baby was stillborn. It was a beautiful baby girl, I can remember her face vividly. Dark hair and perfect features. I woke shaken and had a hard time shaking off the fear and pain, it threw my whole morning off. Of course baby was quiet for awhile and I just had to wake the little one. A few swift kicks later and I felt a small measure of relief and was able to go about my morning. The message today spoke of trusting God even when your world seems in chaos and letting go of the chaos. I was able to give the fear that had been gripping me this morning back to him, trust that he will take care of this baby, that he is best equipped to take care of this baby.

It is of course every mothers worst fear that something bad happen to their children, but it doesn't have to be an all consuming fear.

Trust, it brings peace.

It's the weekend

I LOVE WEEKENDS!!

And it's a long weekend!

Rod's home.
I got to sleep in.
Payton's playing with her Dad.

So nice!

Keep on Keeping on

I'm a naturally shy person, I tend not to initiate conversations, I shy away from making phone calls. I isolate. It stems from low self esteem and non-existent self worth. I instinctively believe that people don't really want to talk to me, or spend time with me so I shouldn't bother them, I shouldn't take up their time. I'm not exciting or interesting, I'm just me. Sometimes I catch these thoughts in mid-think and try to correct them, sometimes I let myself spiral into somewhere not very friendly.

It's no secret I have suffered from depression. Am I there now? I don't really know. I'm tired, emotional and scattered, but I'm also pregnant. I guess we'll know after delivery. I do know that I'm tired of just scrapping by, of working so hard just to stay level.

I've been thinking lately about how my struggles have affected not just me, but those around me. My mom's been there so she understands but I know she worries, Rod is wonderful and doesn't think I'm crazy at all(LOL). I hope I am a stable enough mom for my kids. That is my biggest desire, to be the best possible mom, to give them the best possible start in life.

Do the others in my life know how much I care about them? Friends and Family? I haven't shown support very much recently, haven't reached out. My security zone is not very big and venturing outside it is very scary. Putting myself out there just feels so hard. So my relationships suffer. I haven't been the friend I want to be, the person I know I am. I care so deeply about so many people yet don't let them know. I worry about them, love them, but from afar. And that's not fair to them. I can't expect them just to know how I feel, especially when I'm so good at hiding how I feel.

I have a lot to work on, but I guess we all do. In truth me and my issue's are just a variation of normal. I think Christmas is a good time to reflect and reach out, to try to show others love. To remember what it's all about and let that reflect in my life.

So to all those wonderful people in my life, family, new friends, old friends, please know you are much loved and thought of on a daily basis. Your presence in my life is so appreciated. I love you.

I like peanut butter......

A LOT!!

Christmas is Coming!!

It really is!! QUICKLY!!!! Yes, I'm excited but ARGH I'm also overwhelmed. So many things to do and think about. Even you who are in denial about how close it is can't ignore how little time there really is left to get anything done.

47 days until Christmas
32 week/work days
14 weekend days
7 weekends

So how many shopping days is that? How many days with my husband home? How many of those days are going to be booked with parties and outings ect? OH MY!! At Christmas I'll be 31 weeks along!! PANIC PANIC PANIC. K, breathing...one thing at a time!!

I guess it's time to stop thinking and start doing.

Mad World

I finally FINALLY got Matthew to sleep. I need to eat, I need to shower. Of course I clean up after Payton, check my email, download a song, and he's awake. That was a shorter nap than even Payton used to have.....Sigh.....

Just found this song remade by Gary Jules. I really like it. It's very melancholy though. Which suites my mood I guess.


Tears For Fears

Mad World


All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces

Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere
Going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression

Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I´ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
´cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It´s a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Mad world
Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday

Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me

Now the teacher tells me what´s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me

And I find it kind of funny...

Terrific

*****Sigh*****

I found out yesterday I didn't have to pick up Andrew. Ok, great chance to get some running around done(which includes getting my license replaced as I can't find it). Spend a day out, just me and my kid!!

Last night was horrible, I wasn't feeling well, didn't get much sleep. Then this morning Rod calls. The car died on his way to work. Then his phone died. And my BCAA coverage expired because I have a new Visa # and forgot to tell them. ***Sigh*** Good thing we have some wonderful friends. Thankfully he has made it to work as he managed to call there before his phone died and someone went to get him. The car is still somewhere on the road though. I think he and Phil are figuring that out. Trying not to worry.....

This was the first month in a long while that it looked like I wasn't going to have to stress about paying the bills now there's something wrong with the car. What are we going to do without the car? I have no stinking clue. I'm trying so hard not to stress.

****Sigh****

YEAH!!!

I figured out the design for my Christmas cards!!!

Now I just have to make them......

Ever wonder what your Husband does when your not at home?

I was out last night and I came home to this on the computer screen. Rod was playing with the camera(long shutter speeds and light).

Isn't he sweet?

A breed of their own....

I am talking about toddlers. They are an interesting, amusing bunch. Life is never dull when you have a toddler in the house. I just never know what she's going to come up with next and she leaves me in stitches daily. Of course she also has the capability to drive me absolutely insane.

Her idea of cleaning lately is pushing everything to me with her feet so I can pick it up and put it away.

Yesterday Andrew was trying to build a tower out of blocks and Payton wanted to "help" only her help lead to the toppling of the tower every time. The destruction is her favorite part so she accidentally on purpose managed many topples. Andrew was getting a little frustrated so I instated a no touching rule. So then she "tapped" it with her toe. I explained that touching included the use of any part of her body. So then she was trying to blow down the tower(think 3 little pigs), that wasn't working so she got really close and started "ah ah ah CHOOing" at the tower!!. She's a resourceful and determined little girl. Exasperated sigh....

While eating cheerios yesterday she decided to see how far she could fling the milk spilt in her tray. It was all over the floor, couch and blanket(on the couch) before I could stop her.

This morning while eating I was watching her only to notice she was taking mouthfuls of milk, opening the neck of her shirt and spitting it down. I asked her if she was spitting milk down her shirt and she nodded and grinned at me happily.

She has started telling Knock Knock Jokes. Yes!! Already!! They generally consist of "Knock Knock, Who's there?, ME!!!" (Laughing wildly) Variations include "ME AGAIN!", and "Orange"(copying Andrew).

She has a fascination with the toilet paper, specifically unrolling it....

She has started dressing herself. If you see her one day with her shirt on backwards or inside out it's because she put it on all by herself and was so proud I couldn't change it!

Scientists 'discover cause of cot death'

Scientists believe they have solved the mystery of cot death, the leading killer of children in their first year of life.

A study of victims of sudden infant death syndrome (Sids) has revealed that they had an abnormality in the brain that prevented it realising their bodies did not have enough oxygen.

More here.

To echo Liz....

What IS up with the upside down trees this year?



I googled it and came up with some info. Apparently it was a 12th-century tradition in Central Europe. They are either attached to the ceiling or are weighted at the base. And one of the selling features is that it leaves more floor space open for gifts and better displays ornaments.

I don't know, it just looks wrong to me.

The picture came from the Canadian Tire website here.
More info on this here and here.

A few pics of our Halloween

We went to a friends Church for a family fun night. Payton had a blast. And when she realized they were giving her "treats" well that just added a whole new dimension!! hehe. Then we went to Grandpa and Grandma's house. It was a nice night.

Payton in the bouncy castle. She was in that multiple times!! Oh yes and the first thing she spotted was the face painting and quite enjoyed being a kitty!

"Look what they gave me Mama!!"

In her Tiger costume growling at mom.

Do I really have to sit here?

So apparently I'm blogging again.

I've been doing a lot of thinking since all the drama started last week. I discovered many things. One of which is I hate drama. I've often said that my life is boring, and it usually is, but I'm not complaining. I like it that way. The everyday life, the routine, I know what to expect. I'm not big on change. I don't envy people who never get a rest, who are always surrounded by action and drama. The drama brings to me a sense of chaos, and all that does is stress me out.

Another thing I've discovered is I care what people think about me. Not to the point I would change anything about myself to make others happy, but that it really bothers me when people think bad things about me. I don't expect everyone to like me, I personally don't care for a lot of people, but that they think really horrible things about me upsets me. What's worse is when they believe me capable of doing mean things to others. That is so far from who I am that it really weighs on me. I know the person who did the accusing really believes she is right and I think that bothers me more than the actual accusation. I'm going to have to let that go and move on, not everything gets resolved. The friends and family who really know me, whom I really trust know the truth without question. I know I didn't do it, and God knows, and that's what really matters. I'm done with this topic now.

I've also discovered that I really like blogging. I missed it and was really upset that I didn't feel safe putting myself out there anymore. I thought about stopping altogether, about deleting my blog. I debated making my blog private so only approved people could view it. What I have decided is that I'm going to shake off the negativity that has been surrounding me about the blogging world and get back to normal. I don't want to let one bad experience ruin it all for me. I will call it a learning experience. I think I will change my settings to allow comments again although I think I will enable comment moderation for awhile. So your comments will have to be approved by me before they are posted.

I hope everyone has a good and safe Halloween!

Truman

I found a blog about a baby born at 23weeks gestation on Aug 8. He is now more than 2.5 months old and is doing great!! It's totally amazing!

It just really struck me today as I am 23weeks along as of yesterday!

This is Truman about a week after delivery!! Look how tiny!!


The website is here.

Hands

Hands (Christmas Version)

by Jewel


in the end only kindness matters
in the end
ah mmmmmmmmm ah

if I could tell the world just one thing
it would be that we're all okay
and not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
and useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I'll gather myself around my faith
for light does the darkness most fear

my hands are small, I know
but they're not yours,
they are my own
but they're not yours,
they are my own
and I am never broken

poverty stole your golden shoes
it didn't steal your laughter
and heartache came to visit me
but I knew it wasn't ever after
we will fight not out of spite
for someone must stand up for what's right

'cause where there's a man who has no voice
there ours shall go singing

my hands are small, I know
but they're not yours,
they are my own
but they're not yours,
they are my own
I am never broken

('cuz) in the end only kindness matters
in the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

my hands are small, I know
but they're not yours,
they are my own
but they're not yours,
they are my own

my hands are small, I know
but they're not yours,
they are my own
but they're not yours,
they are my own
and I am never broken
we are never broken

we are god's eyes
god's hands
god's hands
we are god's eyes
we are god's eyes
we are reflections of god
(god's hands)
we are reflections of god
(we are god's eyes)
we are reflections of god

I've been attacked.

I've been accused of leaving mean and hurtful comments on someones blog anonymously. And it wasn't a friendly accusation either. I know it shouldn't bother me as much as it does, I know I didn't and would never do that. And those who know me know I wouldn't do that either but it leaves me feeling hurt and angry. All I have ever been is supportive and friendly on any one's blog, I've done nothing to provoke an attack and yet here I am with a finger pointed at me.

I really hope the person whose blog it is doesn't believe me capable of that, even though I only know her through blogging.

I have disabled comments because I don't want any accusations starting here, I don't want to fight about it let alone a public fight about it. I think I'm going to step back from blogging for awhile, it just doesn't feel safe right now.

I know the truth. But it still hurts.

Just for fun.

1. What is your occupation? Proud Stay at home Mom. Or as Shari puts it "Domestic engineer, overseeing prototype research and development"
2. What color is your underwear? Black
3. What are you listening to right now? HAHA!! Christmas Music(Third Day)
4. What was the last thing you ate? A cookie(Halloween sugar cookie..mmm)
5. Do you wish on stars? Nope
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Just one? Um..My fav at the moment is teal or aqua with brown.
7. How is the weather right now? BLAH!!...
8. Last person you spoke to on the phone? My Mom
9. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Stole it from fellow bloggers, all of whom I like!
10. How old are you today? 27
11. Favorite drink? Milk, Latte's, or White wine(or a made by Liz chocolate martini!)
12. Favorite sport to watch? I'm not really a watch sports on T.V. person but I do like to go to football games.
13. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes
14. Do you wear contacts or glasses? Yes(just not at the same time!)
16. Favorite food? Sushi, specifically Sashimi!!
17.What was the last movie you watched? HAHAHA Elf!!( I blame Andrew)
18. Favorite day of the year? Christmas Day
19. What do you do to vent anger? Cry, Isolate
20.What was your favorite toy as a child? My cabbage patch, mostly I played outdoors though.
21. Fall or Spring? Fall, My perfect day is clear, cool, crisp, with a slight breeze.
22. Hugs or kisses? Both!
23. Cherry or Blueberry? Cherry
24. Do you want your friends to answer this? If they want to
25. Who is most likely to respond? ???
26. Who is least likely to respond? Don't know
27. Living arrangements? Basement Suite
28. The last time you cried? Monday
29. What is on the floor of your closet? Question is what isn't? Sigh....
30. Who is the friend you have had the longest? Rod, Misty
31. What did you do last night? Sewed and Watched T.V.
32. Favorite smell? Vanilla, Rod's cologne
33. What inspires you? Jesus, my kid, Rod
34. What are you afraid of? Clowns, realistic looking dolls, puppets
35. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? Cheese & Spicy
36. Favorite car? Hmm....I like 70's corvettes with racing stripes
37. Favorite dog breed? Wouldn't say I had a Favorite.
38. Number of keys on your key ring? 4
39. How many years at your current job? 2 years 3 months
40. Favorite day of the week? Sunday
41. How many provinces have you lived in? 2
42. How many cities have you lived in? 3
43. Ever driven a Motorcycle or Heavy Machinery? Driven? No, been on? Yes.

For my Friend.

Happy Birthday Mandy!!!

Hope it's a good one!!

Update

Just thought I'd let everyone know that the Midwife finally called today. We were out so she left a message to let me know that everything came back normal on the ultrasound results, that everything looked good!!

Yeah for a healthy baby!!

Yup, definitely a Flu.

Rod woke up with it this morning.

Maybe

It is a flu? Payton was sick again this morning. Obviously her tummy is still upset. She didn't eat all that much yesterday but what she did stayed down. Seems to be keeping water down though.

So I'm on the puke watch again, making sure she gets enough fluids.

Sigh. This is not what I had in mind to do on my day off!!

Oh well, the joys of motherhood!

Today

We seem to be puke free at our house today! THANK GOODNESS!!

Now to just try to catch up on sleep and cleaning.....

Rod has some good quotes here.

I hate puke.

I hate feeling like I have to puke, I hate puking, I hate watching other people puke, and I've now learned what I hate the most is my kid puking.

It finally happened, Payton threw up................a lot. It hit all of a sudden just after 5 and as any of you with kids know, was not fun. She's sleeping now and there hasn't been any "activity" in over an hour and a half. The floor is washed, the bathroom is cleaned, the clothes and towels are in the dryer, I'm not sure what to do with the couch cushion cover so I am going to figure it out tomorrow and let myself try to sleep.

I think it must have been something she ate although I can't figure out what. She had no other symptoms and seems to be over the worst already so it doesn't strike me as a flu.

I'm exhausted. Going to bed.

Fall colours

Listen to me whine.

Payton is sleeping. No I'm not going to nap today although I'm sure I could. I ended up with a short nap yesterday, after only 30min I was awake. Still tired but awake. Then last night I had another restless night. I couldn't get to sleep, then when I finally did I just couldn't stay asleep, I was up 4-5 times. So when I got up this morning I felt frustrated and exhausted. I cancelled my plans for this morning because I just couldn't muster up the energy to get us ready to go. We played for awhile then went outside and played some more but that's all I could handle. I'm going to try to get some tidying done, and have a shower, and hope that if I don't nap maybe my sleep will be better.

Yeah it's Fri!! It looks like another busy weekend but at least Rod is home. I love weekends!!

My baby girl

I can't beleive you've gotten so big!! When did that happen?

Another Day

My Midwife was worried about me being tired already. She told me about a herb to help calm my mind before bed and asked me to take naps when I can and get as much rest as possible. So Payton is napping and I'm going to lay down for my prescribed nap. I'm torn though because my house is a mess, somehow having Rod home didn't mean I got anything extra done, I actually got less done!! My house really needs some TLC but the Midwife said that my rest right now is more important.

I also have a headache which I hope will die down if I rest and won't turn into a migraine.

I'm so excited to have a wiggly baby!! I need to come up with a name for the babe, it just can't be it or he/she anymore. I think I was holding out with nicknames this time until I knew the sex. Payton was Little one. And there are just to many beans and peanuts. Hmmmm....

Alrighty off to bed with me.

So...It's a......

Surprise!! Yup, she wouldn't tell us!! So your guess is as good as ours!! hehe. I'm not sure if she couldn't or just wouldn't tell. When we asked she made up about 3 excuses(it was to early, the baby was in a difficult position to see, and the baby had been so wiggly she couldn't get a good look) in a row then left quickly.

Oh well, I'm a little disappointed about that but not to bad. I just don't really like unisex clothes so I won't get to do to much shopping!! And I guess we'll have to pick out names for both, it was hard enough coming to a decision about 1 name last time!!

The good news is as far as I can tell everything looks good. Baby had a good strong heartbeat and was wiggling around so much that it was hard for her to get pictures and measurements. I figure that has to be a good sign. Well as far as it being healthy goes I guess but does that mean I'm going to have another very very active kid on my hands? Mind you Payton was never overly active during Ultrasounds or really really active period when I was pregnant. She was just very quick to tell you when she didn't like something!

I wasn't over impressed with the technician we got. Not only would she not tell us the gender but didn't say much of anything. I didn't leave feeling very reassured. I had to ask a lot of questions before she would give us info. I was really hoping to hear from her that everything looked good. I'm thinking it was just her personality to be quiet but I tell you her bedside manner could definitely use some improving!! The midwife said that if anything was wrong she(the technician) would have called in another technician to get a second opinion so she figures everything must be good. She is going to call me when they get the report to tell me what it says so I won't wonder for 4 weeks!!

Nerves

Ok, now I'm nervous. I so want everything to go well tomorrow. Girl or Boy?? Doesn't really matter, that's just bonus material. I've been feeling kicks and movement, I know that's a really good sign yet I still find myself thinking what if I'm imagining it? What if it's uterus twinges or something else? So silly I know there's just so many other things that could be wrong. I feel like my pregnancy innocence has been stripped from me, I can't seem to be just excited and happy, there's always worry there as well. I pray yes, but not only for the babies health but also that whatever happens it be God's will. What if it's God's will to take this baby too? ARGH!! I know how paranoid that sounds.

I can't wait to see my baby!! I really am excited!! Ultrasound appointment is at 1. I'm not supposed to pee after 11 mean while drinking liters of water. What kind of torture is that?

I don't know when I'll get to a computer put I'll update as soon as I can!!

It's Tuesday

******Sigh******

Last Chance!!

Well my gender poll went A.W.O.L . I do remember that 61% of you thought I was having a boy, 33% thought girl and 6% of you were unsure.

As my Ultrasound is in 2 days I thought I'd re-post the poll. So last chance for anyone to change their vote!

Anyone want some help deciding?? Well this pregnancy has been a lot like the one with Payton. Differences being I was actually sick at the beginning of this one(keep in mind it was twins then though), I am more tired now(in the middle) than I was with her, and I haven't had near as many cravings.

Here are some gender predictor stuff I've found online, what they say I'm having and whether it was correct with Payton.

Chinese gender chart

says Boy
was right with Payton

http://parenting.ivillage.com/ttc/ttcsigns/0,,j736,00.html
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Another Chinese gender chart

Thought this one was different when I looked at it until I read you need your lunar age on this one which is about 2 years different, so I added the years and re looked and it was the same as the one above. They have a calculator to make things easier on you.

says Boy
was right with Payton

http://www.obfocus.com/calculators/gender.htm
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Heart Rate(don't believe this old wives tale at all but am including it anyways)

Has always been over 140 this time

over 140- girl
under 140-boy

Was right with Payton
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Dad's weight

gaining too-boy
not gaining-girl

Rod isn't gaining would say girl
Was wrong with Payton, he gained right along side me last time!!
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Online quiz

gave me a 50% chance of having a boy or girl
Same when I plugged in my info for my pregnancy with Payton

http://pregnancy.about.com/gi/dynamic/offsite.htm?site=http://www.childbirth.org/articles/boyorgirl.html
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Different online quiz

73% chance of girl!!
Said 53% chance of Boy with Payton

http://www.amazingpregnancy.com/oldwivestales/
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How about Mothers intuition?

I was positive I was having a girl with Payton and was Correct.
I was positive I was having a boy with our last pregnancy which we lost.

This time I'm not sure. I keep waffling back and forth. If I was forced to guess I would probably say girl.

So well see!!

The things that excite me....

MY KID JUST POOPED ON THE POTTY!!!!!

She told me she had to go(and she was in a pull-up as we were just heading out) we sat on the potty and she pooped!! All on her own!!

I'm SO excited!!!

The Ones I Love The Most.

Payton my baby?? nope, toddler?? nope.....puppy???

My child has taken to running around panting and giving many many "puppy" kisses.

Have you been licked by your child this morning??

It finally happened......

She peed on her bear. Standing right in front of me looks down, a stream is landing squarely on poor bear. She just keeps going until I say "STOP!! Your peeing on bear!!" So she finishes peeing on the potty while I'm using bear to clean the rest of the floor.

And now she's upset that bear is having a bath. Poor poor bear!!

How about this one?

I think I see more similarities in this one??

What do you think?

I must not look like any celebrities because I don't think I really look a lot like any of the ones it gave me. What do you think? Maybe I'll try with a different picture. It's fun though!

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Don't Forget!!

Season premiere of LOST is on tonight!!

I'm very excited!!!

Me and my babe.

I change my mind

Ok, it just might be a little late for that but I still have to say...

WHY WOULD ANYONE IN THEIR RIGHT MIND HAVE 2 KIDS!!!

Alright we will chalk 2 up to ignorance. But then why do people have more than 2?? WHY WHY WHY WHY?????

I have Matthew today. Can you tell how it's gone??????


CRAP!! he's up again.....

*****Sigh*****

Edited to add that he's not the only problem, I think they have combined forces to see who can make me cry first......

Title, I can't think of a title.....

I can't believe it's Monday already. Where does the weekend go?

Friday I just relaxed with my hubby until I got a call to go on a late night coffee adventure. Sounds exciting doesn't it? Hehe...I was just happy to be able to be there.

Sat we cleaned house, no fun but necessary. Payton had a birthday party then friends we hadn't seen for a long time came over and we had a great visit, so much fun. We pulled out the game cube wiped the dust off it and played. We girls kicked some cockiness out of those smug boys, it was too fun.

Sun after church we went to visit Rod's Dad and Step Mom as they had just gotten back from their vacation. They were in London, Scotland, and Ireland, for a month. They had a good time but were glad to be home. We had a good visit, I love watching Payton interact with them. I am so thankful Payton has such awesome Grandparents.

Today I was so stinking tired. I've been tired again lately. Last night I couldn't sleep, I was so restless. And when I finally did sleep Payton was up as she had a restless night as well. ****Sigh**** We went for coffee this morning but between my fatigue and Payton's crankiness I don't think we were very good company! We'll have to try that again soon! Hopefully tonight is better.

Grrrrrr.....

It's 6:15, we went to bed very very late because we had company, Payton is still sleeping, and I am awake. Why?

Giggle giggle THUMP laugh laugh giggle giggle THUMP

Above my head ALL the kids upstairs are up and dog piling onto their parents bed.

I went upstaires and sqwinted at her sleepily informing her that it was really loud. I hope I wasn't to big of a cow.

I am SO annoyed.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr............

Is it bedtime yet?

For the last couple days I've been so so tired. First trimester all I want to do is sleep tired. I'm hopeing this doesn't continue. Anybody hear of someone getting tired again around 18weeks? Payton is napping so I'm going to clean my house for 15min then go to bed.

You don't say?

What? Laundry doesn't do itself? The floor won't sweep itself?

Here I thought I could get some lunch, check out the blogs and by the time I was done the kitchen would be clean.

Oh I'm so disillusioned!

LOL!! Oh well, here I go to clean my kitchen.

Inquiry

Does anybody know where we get some nice autumn leaves around here? In a variety of colours at one location? I really want to take some pics and am not sure where to go.

Completely random thoughts

I hate being in this in-between pregnant stage, meaning I'm starting to show but I don't look pregnant. I just look like I'm gaining a beer gut.

I've now been fully peed on. Not an oops the diapers leaking dribble but a full on my kids not wearing a diaper and were cuddling on the couch I'm totally soaked pee. Fun.

Panties and Poop don't get along.

Where do all my single socks come from?

I only have one stinking bra that fits....Grrrr.....

I've accepted the fact that my cat is gone. Hopefully he's found a nice warm home cause the alternative is yucky.

Christmas is coming!! Which excites me and scares the doodle out me at the same time.

Chocolate gives me indigestion. Bring on the tums!! I can't have Sushi or Martini's I am not giving up chocolate!!

My kid JUST peed on the potty!!! YEAH!!

Bloggers spellchecker finally recognizes the words blogger, blog, and blogs!! It's about time!

Some thoughts

Do you worry about what you can and can't afford? I know I do. We've been struggling lately and money has been a stressful topic. Thanks to God's grace and a lot of prayer we're getting by. I didn't think at this stage in life we would be just getting by. But life holds all kinds of unexpected twists and turns, roads you never would have chosen to go down all of a sudden you are knee deep in. But really what would life be like if everything was always perfect? Would you be as likely to hold the good moments dear? Would you be able to find joy in the sunset or beauty in the wind rustling the brightly coloured fall leaves? If I hadn't struggled and been litterly forced to turn to God out of pure desperation would I be able to feel his kiss on the sunlight? Out of my struggles, out of the darkness I have managed to find the light. And I have found some very dear friends who pushed me when I could no longer take another step. Life today is still as hard as it was yesterday, last week, a year ago, but now it comes with the promise of the future, Hope. I know I will stumble and fall, but I pray that I continue to move towards God and the freedom he brings instead of away from him.

I found myself upset this morning about the things I can't do for Payton. We have no extras. I was reminded while listening to the radio that none of that stuff matters. She's fed, she's clothed, but most of all she's loved. The most important thing I can do for her is model Christ. Love her and others as if they were myself. Teach her love and compassion with a passion for our heavenly father. Expensive schooling, the "right" activities, the "right" house or neighborhood. It doesn't matter, that's not what's important.

The speaker(I forget already who it was) said one thing that has stuck with me. You can be successful, without reaching greatness. Success as the world portrays does not bring greatness in the eyes of the Lord. Thank you Lord for reminding me I don't need more to live in your will, that I don't need more to raise my family to live in greatness.

I've posted part of this verse before but stumbled upon it again with the verses before and after it. I love it all together like this so thought I'd share it again.

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." —Philippians 4:4-7

Yuck

So out of the blue tonight I start to feel a little nauseous. I was talking to my mom at the time and she was joking about talking to her making me sick. All of a sudden I felt really sick so I threw my phone at Rod as I sped toward the bathroom. My poor mom. Then I woke Payton while getting sick as she was worried about her momma.

What the heck was that? I felt fine today, I've eaten since and am still fine. It happened a couple weeks ago as well. I'm not supposed to be sick anymore!! My poor pregnant body is so confused.

Rod's explanation, "It must be a boy".

How exciting is my blog lately?? All revolving around the toilet. My life is just so glamorous!!

The Potty Trainng Chronicles continue

I haven't yet posted about yesterday. But before I get to that I had to share. SHE JUST PEED ON THE POTTY!!! YEAH!!! Completely!! I am so excited. We are making progress!!


Day 2

K, back to yesterday. The morning started out bad with a nice present in the panties. After that she was sort hit and miss, she would start to pee realize it and then tell us she needed to pee and would generally pee a little in the potty. Then one time she called me saying "oh no mommy pee pee!" As I turned around I noticed a little pee on the toilet seat and she was trying to get the panties off. She had gone to the potty by her herself and tried to pee on the potty then realized she still had panties on, then she called for me. We got the panties off and she peed on the potty!! Now there was a "trail" leading up to the potty but I was so excited that she had tried to go and sit without assistance!! Happy Dance!! So at bedtime we tried to get her to pee before we put the diaper back on to no avail, so we put the diaper and jammies on. As she was brushing her teeth she turned to me with a frantic look on her face "PEE MOM!! Pee!!" She was trying to get her jammies and diaper off. By the time we got them off and her onto the potty it was to late but I was impressed she didn't want to pee in the diaper!!

Sorry to all those I'm boring completely with all this potty talk I promise to return to the regularly scheduled programming soon.

A good read

Another post from DaMomma that really touched me. Her daugther just turned 4 and she is reminising. So good!! It's titled Hello Goodbye.

Here.

Hmmmm....

Six pairs of panties is not going to be enough....(((((Sigh)))))

What am I supposed to do when we go out????

The Potty Training Chronicles: Day 1

Well, 1 day down and I fear many many to go.

Diaper came off Dora panties on. Payton kept looking down at the panties in confusion, I imagine they must feel very strange after 2 years of diapers. I explained that if she peed on the potty she would get a treat. Well talk about motivation, she repeatedly went and sat on the potty to no avail. We went outside(with potty) and played on the trampoline until it was time for lunch. Came inside and minutes later she peed, not on the potty, and not even an attempt to get to the potty. By the time we got her to the potty it was to late. No treats. A couple times after that when she started to pee she attempted to get the potty but didn't. Still no treats. About suppertime she managed one drop in the potty and was rewarded with 1 smarty for the effort. I REALLY wanted to give her a treat for peeing on the potty on day 1. Right before bed she started to pee looked up at dad and said PEE! Dad swept her onto the potty where...YES....SHE PEED ON THE POTTY!!!!! YEAH!!!
One happy girl with 3 smarties and one happy mommy that we actually hit the potty.

So I guess it's progress as she knows now when she starts peeing to try to get to the potty. She doesn't seem to have figured out the feeling that she needs to pee before she goes, but I guess that will come with time!!

Oh and poopy panties are fun too!! But that's a day 2 story.

The gloves are off!!

Well, actually the diaper is off, the panties are on. Let the fun begin!!

Potty training......Here we go!!!

Philippians 1:6

...God has begun a good work in you(me), and He is well able to bring it to full completion.

Tagged

Shari tagged me!!

Well, I'm supposed to share 8 things about myself. Hmmm....

1. I can't stand to be in a bathroom with a closed shower curtain. I will always check behind it or open it before I lock the door. One to many people hiding in the shower movie maybe??

2. I don't like dolls. Cabbage patch ones don't seem to bother me but anything realistic or with eyes that look like they are watching you....yikes!! I'm not fond of clowns either....

3. I was born and lived in Red Deer Alberta until I was 11.

4. I love photography and would love to eventually open a studio of my own.

5. I am very shy and have to literally force myself out of my comfort zone daily.

6. I am an only child. This always lead me to believe I wanted to have a very large family. After having Payton I'm thinking 2 might just be enough(there were days/weeks/months) where I thought 1 might be enough LOL!!

7. Rod was my high school sweetheart and close friend long before that. I feel so blessed to have found him so young, he is amazing!

8. I like to watch no brainer television, something I don't have to think about to hard. It helps me unwind and takes my mind off the real world for awhile. I shamelessly enjoy Lost, America's Next Top Model, Grey's Anatomy, What Not To Wear, Two and a Half Men, and Desperate Housewives. Although I am usually behind because I don't have the time to sit and watch, or I forget when things are on.

So that's 8. Now I get to tag people. Watch your email!!

***Updated*** I had a request to post whom I tagged so I tagged Jenn, Lee, Sue, Kaylyn, Tysey, and Carolyn. Shari tagged Liz, Steph, Misty, Mandy, Kristi, and ME!!

Odds and Ends

I forgot to put my recycling out AGAIN!! My garbage did make it out thankfully, thanks to Rod.

My cat still isn't home, today is eight days.

Payton can now open doors, and unlock them! Fun fun!!

Payton has been singing "Rain rain go away" all day. Too cute!!

Did you know Sunlight dish soap makes good stain remover? I use it in a pinch when I run out of stain remover. Doing laundry must go on stain remover or not!!

I am not in maternity clothes yet!?!? Whats with that? My before pants must have been baggy cause I've definitely grown a pooch!!

Our ultrasound is scheduled for Oct 11th at 1pm.

ARGH!!

I'm feeling very good today. Positive and alive. It's great. I have a blog forming in my head that had nothing to do with noise and space, but I need a vent so here we go.

I am SO tired of living in a basement suite.
I am SO tired of having 4(soon to be 5) LOUD kids upstairs.
I am SO tired of small living quarters.
I am SO tired of using our bedroom like a storage room.

K, I'm done. I was just boiling over. Payton was very hard to get down for her nap today and I finally had her down and the screaming and thumping upstairs woke her. Grrrrr....... I have been thinking about switching our bedrooms because ours is quieter. Right now her bedroom is directly under the room where all 4(yes 4) kids sleep. How crazy is that. They use the other rooms for a school room(she home schools) and a playroom. Whatever works I guess.

That said I do get along with everyone upstairs and generally like it here I've just found myself more irritated about the noise and space lately. And we will make due with what we have as we are fortunate to have a stable place to live.

Vent done.

Real Milestones

I love this article by Damomma(who is a great writer) on "real" childhood milestones.

Score!!

I found some change in the bottom of my purse, and got a twoonie for completing a radio survey. Anyone wanna go for coffee????

Verse for today

I know I know, it's a repeat but it spoke to me again today.

Phillipians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

God in all things

I actually sat through an entire Church service yesterday!! Payton wasn't thrilled about being left in nursery but she's old enough to let Mom and Dad enjoy a full service!! So I was sitting there listening to the music and felt closer to God than I had in a long time. It was so good. It made me want to look for God a little harder in my everyday life. I thought I'd share what I found.


Where do I see God?

-in the face of my daughter
-in the miracle of pregnancy
-in the beauty of the sunrise as it brings the promise of a new day
-in hands raised high in worship
Where do I feel God?

-in hugs from family and friends
-in prayer when his arms are wrapped tightly around me
-in nature where he is all around

Where do I taste God?

-every time I eat as that means I will not go hungry
Where do I hear God?

-in the wind through the trees
-in worship music
-in the laughter of a child

Where do I smell God?

-in the freshness after the rain
-in the coffee Rod puts on for me before he leaves



The tree photo I found here
http://www.icdp-online.de/sites/qinghai/news/iod/2005_09_01.htm

The after the rain photo I found here
http://www.flickr.com/photos/txiribiton/108261078/

Hey

I just realized I zipped past my 500th post without realizing!! Wow!!

Verse for today

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

So I've switched

So it was painless and easy. I am now using Beta Blogger. Everything came with me. I don't seem to have to change a thing. Now using my current template I can't use a lot of the new features. I am going to have to change my template to be able to play with the new stuff. I'm ok with that, I'm ready for a change. I just thought I'd let people know how easy it's been so far and they don't seem to have to mess around with stuff if they don't want to. I know some people who don't want to change anything.

A verse for today.

Isaiah 30:19
How gracious he will be when you cry for help.

More Beta Blog Info

This is from Blogger help.

Why can't I switch to Blogger in beta?

While the new version of Blogger is still in beta, some users with certain types of blogs will not be able to switch to it. We'll be adding support for these blogs as soon as possible, so everyone can join in the fun. But for now, if you have any of the following on your account, you'll need to hold off for a bit:

• A blog publishing via FTP to a non-BlogSpot server.
• A blog with a Plus upgrade (we stopped offering this upgrade a couple years ago, so this will not affect many people).
• ***A team blog.***
• A blog with a mobile device associated with it.

Note that, even if your blog is eligible to switch, you may not have the link to do so on your dashboard. We are starting out by just switching over a limited number of accounts, but we'll add more and more as time goes on. However, if you still want to try out Blogger in beta, what you can do is to visit beta.blogger.com and create a new account. Later on, you'll be able to merge this account with your original Blogger account.

Thanks for your patience, and we promise it will be worth the wait!

*This is why I havn't been able to switch yet I'm sure. I have 3 blogs attached to me. 2 of them team blogs!! So Liz, Mandy, Shari I know you were wondering!! Mystery solved!!

A verse for today

Phillipians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Sometimes I am my own worst enemy.

Usually I can have coffee in the evening and sleep no problem. Not so much last night. My mind wouldn't shut off, it kept spinning through all my worries and anxieties. Needless to say it was very very late when I finally got to sleep, then Payton was up twice after that. The last time she said her mouth hurt so we gave her some Tylenol and that seemed to help. I am so tired this morning. Today feels like a nap day!!

On a happy note, what finally helped me get to sleep was baby. Lots of movement last night, definite kicking!! He/She is definitely growing in there. Rod put his face on my stomach where I was feeling kicks and was rewarded with a tap on the lips, he was very excited!! So fun.

My cat is MIA.

I haven't seen my Cat in 2 days!! His breakfast from yesterday(wed) is still in his dish. That is very unusual.

I worry because it was 2 days ago I heard coyotes out back(Which Payton tried to explain to me were Dogs not coyotes, "Woof Mommy woof"). Hmmmm.....

Just for fun

I thought it would be fun to see what gender people think our baby is. Our ultrasound is scheduled for Oct when I'm 20weeks. I may call and try to change the time so I'll let everyone know when I know for sure when it will be. We will most likely find out the sex then, which is why I wanted to start the poll now. The midwife says that there is one technician at Med-Ray(which is where we are going) that won't tell you. So we have a 25% of not finding out!! So it may end up being a long poll if we can't find out!!

I guess only time will tell.

The poll is on my sidebar(on the right). I think it is working, please let me know if it isn't!

Yeah!!

My midwife appointment today went well. Everything seems good and we were able to find the heartbeat fairly easily. I'm so relieved. I may actually be able to relax a little now and enjoy. I think in the last few days I've been feeling some movement!! It's so slight and fleeting I wasn't sure at first but it's been consistent so I'm very excited!! I love feeling the baby move around inside, I think that's my favorite part of being pregnant. I LOVE IT!!

Beta Blogger

Just so all you out there know, not all of us have the option of switching over yet. For those of you who don't even know what it is, it is a new format blogger is switching over to. . It looks like it's going to be a good upgrade and yes eventually everyone will have to switch.

There is issue's with commenting back and forth between original Blogger and Beta Blogger. For instance: I who still hasn't switched can't comment on those who've switched. I beleive those who have switched are also having problems commenting on the originals. I think it will all iron out eventually but it is fustrating in the meantime not to be able to comment on the Beta Blogs.

I copied this from the blogger help page as I was trying to figure out what was going on.

Thanks for your interest in all the new features we've got coming up! The Blogger in beta program is going to start out small, so only a low percentage of people who log in to Blogger will see the option to switch over. If you're one of them, you'll see a blue box in the sidebar of your dashboard highlighting the new Blogger in beta. Click the "learn more" link there and we'll walk you through the process of switching your account.

For more info: go here


I actually started a 2nd blog, with Beta Blogger using my google(gmail account) just so I could comment where ever I wanted. I'm not planning on using it, just having it for now. It's at

http://talkaboutfustration.blogspot.com/

Gotta love the address.

I ponder as I walk along

Thoughts

Can be dangerous things, destructive beyond imagination. Really without bad thoughts we wouldn't have bad deeds right?

I've been thinking a lot about a couple things the last few days. One being about thoughts, we started reading battlefield of the mind in Bible study last week and I think it's going to be really good. Definitely give me something to think about.

The other being honesty, sparked by Steph. How honest am I really? It's relative I guess. If someone asks my honest opinion about something I'm going to tell them, I can't lie. But in reality if you ask me how I'm doing, your going to get a fine, or pretty good, which is probably not the truth. There are things that people do all the time that irritate me, or that I wonder at their motives but make the choice not to say anything because I know what the results will be. I guess I'm not all that honest after all, I used to be, now I think in the really real world people don't want to hear it?? I don't know, I guess I've got more pondering to do.

Anyways I'm sure both these things are going to morph into full blogs, but I'm not there yet.

Fun at the beach

Pretty easy but...Guess who??

Your so cute!!

Who is this??

Matthew 6, 25-34

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Hmmmm........

Rod has a cold. Payton sounds nasaly. I have a headache and feel exhausted. I think it could be one of "those" days.....

PIctures

I have sat down a few times in the last couple days to blog and the words just won't come. So I thought I would share some Pics from our Aquarium trip. It was a good time!!

Same old same old

We'll my companies gone :( The visit was much to short and I'm very sad they are gone. We had a lot of fun and some great visiting. I'll post some pics...sometime. I think I've been saying I'll post pics all summer and haven't!! I guess life will settle back into the regular routine, only I'm not sure I like the old regular routine. Yesterday and today have been lazy days, a little bit catch up on the house stuff and a lot catch up on rest. I'm so beat.

So my house is in a semi-balance or order and I refuse to let it get out of control again. It still needs a lot of help(organization, and decoration) but it does not look like a slob lives here and that makes me happy. Well.....is not telling you about the state of our bedroom lieing? Ok I re-phrase, our house(as long as you don't open our bedroom door) that is. Gutting out and downsizing the bedroom will be a BIG BIG BIG job, which I'm not mentally prepared for yet, let me catch up on my sleep then we'll talk. I was tidying last night before bed, you know doing that few dishes and picking up the toys off the floor when Rod asked me "when are you going to stop?", poor man doesn't understand my new determination to not let it get out of control again. I let him know "when it's done" and subtly let him know if he swept then it would be done quicker. I think I may end up a little neat freakish when this place is organized but that will be born out of living in a self created mess and knowing how of control it makes me feel.

So Steph, guess what I'm doing this week?? I'm making a schedule, yup I'm going all out. I need to write down things that need to be done each day in order to keep up on everything and not have it be a big deal. As well as keeping on top of when I have extra kids, who needs picking up, and my own appointments. I think I need to do a menu plan as well but that overwhelms me so I think I better start slow!!

Anyways, speaking of dinner I better go figure out what we're eating tonight. Have a good night everyone.

I am a Violet What Flower Are You?

"You have a shy personality. You tend to hesitate before trying new things or meeting new people. But once people get to know you, you open up and show the world what you are really all about."

Princess Payton

The wedding was beautiful. A big congratulations to Aimee and Chris who are heading for their honeymoon today. I have to admit though my favorite part was watching my kid. She did so well!! After having nothing to do with walking the aisle during rehearsal she wasn't fazed a bit on actual wedding day. I didn't have to coax her or anything just sent her on her way. She walked all the way to the front and attempted to give the Priest her bouquet before thinking wait a minute what's going on here? Then went to find Dad. She was a trooper all day through lots of waiting, fussing, hot weather, and people trying to get her to do strange things. She asked repeatedly when the dancing was going to happen and could hardly contain herself through the first dances(which were bride/groom/family only). And my goodness, wasn't she the cutest thing??