Sunday, February 13, 2005

Today

Today was good.

When I got up and looked in the mirror this morning I hardly recognized myself. I looked tired, worn out, and well......old. I thought to myself, what if this is it?? What if this is the end of youthfulness and attractiveness, what if I'm turning into a frump?? I asked my husband if he recognized me anymore and he looked at me as if I was speaking French. One of my favorite movies came to mind, As Good As It Gets, I was thinking what if this is as good as it gets???

Then I went to Church. Where I was lifted up, renewed, cleansed, and most of all I was Home. I felt good about myself inside and out. I realized God doesn't see my outside, he sees my insides and that's what's special about me. As I was basking in my new found realization, singing along in worship and holding my baby girl, I felt beautiful, really beautiful. I was thinking about that later in the day and I realized that I always feel beautiful when I'm holding my baby, and I always feel beautiful when I'm in worship. I think it's at those times I see myself through different eyes, through the eyes of God, and through the eyes of my child, and to them I'm beautiful, frumpy or not!!

5 comments:

Mandy said...

"You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart
And I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love
And beautiful"

This is one of my favourite songs by Bethany Dillon. There is something magical about worship. It is Him that is radiating through us when we sing our adoration for Him. You are beautiful my dear, complimented by a gorgeous child in your arms. And you'll always be damn sexy to me!!! Haahaa! (Remember how Rod saw you in those horrible stretch pants?? Oh yeah, you're gorgeous! Keep thinking of that!). Love you lots.

Michelle said...

Actually they're yoga pants Mandy, thanks for sharing. ROTFL!!!

kaybrayshay said...

You are one the most beatiful woman that I know!! Every stage of our friendship I see you with more grace and poise then ever before. Love you always,Kaylyn

Miss-buggy said...

YOu are beautiful Michelle. I saw what you were talking about. You just seemed to have this completely peaceful air about you when I looked at you yesterday. You and Payton. It makes my heart smile with prode to know that we are such good friends and that Payton has such a loving, beautiflu mother. It's ok to feel frumpy sometimes too though. I've been there and sometimes those days are welcomed. Love you.

Shari said...

I know that I don't know well, but I have to say that I have always thought you were beautiful. =)