Tuesday, October 31, 2006

So apparently I'm blogging again.

I've been doing a lot of thinking since all the drama started last week. I discovered many things. One of which is I hate drama. I've often said that my life is boring, and it usually is, but I'm not complaining. I like it that way. The everyday life, the routine, I know what to expect. I'm not big on change. I don't envy people who never get a rest, who are always surrounded by action and drama. The drama brings to me a sense of chaos, and all that does is stress me out.

Another thing I've discovered is I care what people think about me. Not to the point I would change anything about myself to make others happy, but that it really bothers me when people think bad things about me. I don't expect everyone to like me, I personally don't care for a lot of people, but that they think really horrible things about me upsets me. What's worse is when they believe me capable of doing mean things to others. That is so far from who I am that it really weighs on me. I know the person who did the accusing really believes she is right and I think that bothers me more than the actual accusation. I'm going to have to let that go and move on, not everything gets resolved. The friends and family who really know me, whom I really trust know the truth without question. I know I didn't do it, and God knows, and that's what really matters. I'm done with this topic now.

I've also discovered that I really like blogging. I missed it and was really upset that I didn't feel safe putting myself out there anymore. I thought about stopping altogether, about deleting my blog. I debated making my blog private so only approved people could view it. What I have decided is that I'm going to shake off the negativity that has been surrounding me about the blogging world and get back to normal. I don't want to let one bad experience ruin it all for me. I will call it a learning experience. I think I will change my settings to allow comments again although I think I will enable comment moderation for awhile. So your comments will have to be approved by me before they are posted.

I hope everyone has a good and safe Halloween!

5 comments:

James Goudie said...

happy halloween.

glad to see you back

Shari da loop said...

((hugs))

susanna said...

glad you're back.....

Miss-buggy said...

good for you. glad to see you back. hugs...

jewels said...

welcome back!