Thursday, August 23, 2007


I have sleep issues. I feel redundant talking about it but it's my whole world right now. I'm tired, very very tired, close to non functioning tired. Sigh. This could be a boring post.

Everything else seems big because I'm so tired. I was talking to the Health Nurse when Samara was getting her shots and when she asked me how I was doing I said I don't know. And I honestly don't. I don't know if I'm just tired, and that's making me feel bad or if PPD is still there. Samara is up every 1.5 -2 hours at night, wanting to eat. It started 2-3 months ago, I thought she was going through a growth spurt, and she probably was, but then it continued. I'm sure it's just habit now but it's a hard one to break because if she's really hungry I want to feed her. In reality though I'm done, I'm so tired I can't think straight and emotionally, and physically I just feel done. Ready to throw the towel in. Somehow, something has got to give.

The last few days I have upped how much cereal Samara has been getting as well as introducing chicken(which she wasn't sure about). To ensure she is getting enough calories during the day. Then last night we said I wouldn't feed her unless it had been 4 hours. Gotta start somewhere. So if she woke 1.5-2 hours after I fed her(which she did) Rod went and tried to get her back to sleep. She was not a happy camper. None of us got much sleep but I did only feed her 3 times last night instead of 6-7 so I guess that's improvement even if we didn't get anymore sleep than usual. And in Rod's case less sleep than usual. I'm blessed to have Rod to help me out, I think he really sees that I can't go on like this.

We even cancelled our camping trip for this weekend because it's just to much. We are exhausted and then we would be completely off schedule again. I start to fall into overwhelm just thinking about it. It was a hard decision to make because we were really looking forward to going and spending some time with the relative we don't see very often. But we feel we would really be pushing to go. Maybe next year.

Anyways I hear Sam so my complaining is done!

How did everyone out there deal with nighttime sleep issues? Especially when the baby is still in your room?


Miss-buggy said...

I am not sure how to deal with the night time issues. It must be hard while she is in your room. We moved Cooper out of our room when he was 3 weeks and we all slept better but unfourtunately you don't have that option.
You are doing a good job. I understand the overwhelm feeling. Although I do get more sleep now.
Look at how old Cooper is. I still have PPD. It can occur up to years after the child is born. Some moms it goes away and others, like myself, need some help.
You are doing a good job and if Sam was really starving she would NOT go back to sleep. It could very well be habit. I know Cooper did that many times.
Hang in there. (((HUGS))) will be praying for you. You are doing a great job!