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I should have been cleaning.....

Instead I was doing this. WAY to much fun. I am still laughing.

Boring post about being tired. I know, the title could use some work.....

Well, one thing I've discovered is this self-discovery thing is hard when your tired. And I'm tired. I have realized some things about myself, important things that I hope will help me along the way. But my emotions and thoughts are so fleeting and scattered when I'm tired, I'm so useless. I'm rather surprised that I've functioned as well as I have, but really I have no choice. You do what you have to do as parents.

Is it wrong that this morning I had a fleeting wish not to be a parent? Just long enough to get a couple hours more sleep? I have got to figure out how to help Sam sleep better, for my sanity. We will all be better off with a well rested mama.

And I think the girls have the start of another cold. Sigh.

Oh well, no worries, the world will seem brighter after a cup of coffee and a shower. It always does.

Mind like a load of laundry

You know, waterlogged, spinning around in circles. I feel though that I'm almost done, coming into the spin cycle. When I emerge I'll be fresh, and clean. Maybe still in need of a dryer and iron, but at the very least a work in progress.

Hmmmm....think I got ahead of myself there. Let's start at the beginning shall we?

I've been doing a lot of reflecting lately, mostly inwardly but some outwardly as well because it's all connected. I've been feeling rather dis-jointed lately, and that's a trend in my life. I plod along rather well for awhile then I seem to loose my footing. I think it's rather common and everyone has their seasons yet I feel like I'm missing something, or missing out on something maybe? One thing that has been rather slow in coming to me is that there are important chunks of me missing. No I'm not missing limbs or digits(your welcome for the visual;) ) but there are internal parts of me missing, maybe unexplored is a better term. I have often struggled with self image and self worth. I think in reality I don't really "know" myself. I have gotten wrapped up in what I do instead of WHO I am.

The Christmas season is rapidly approaching, and this seems like a good time to explore me. God made me as I am, he sent his Son to save me. Me as I am, not me how I think or feel I should be. I have often felt I am not worth getting to know, that I'm boring or something equally demoralizing. But if I believe in God(as I do) then I have to accept that I was made without mistakes. I am perfectly as I am supposed to be. If God created me then I have to be worth getting to know.

So I want to surge forth into self-discovery. And I want to share my journey with you, well actually I don't want to but I feel like I should. Over the Christmas season I long to get to know God better, I want to draw close to him and let him show me all that I am, all that he created me to be. I want to thank him, and praise him for sending his Son to us, and celebrate with him that Birthday so long ago that brought us all Hope.

I call this photo fustration

This was at the Apple Barn. They had a flatbed truck set up with pumpkins for photgraphy purposes. I thouht GREAT we can get a shot of the 2 girls together, WRONG! Samara would have no part of sitting. So Rod thought hey we can get her standing in behind. Ha! Well that was fun too. I took many in hopes of getting ONE good one! LoL! I think all-in-all they are better viewed as a series. Happy Viewing.

Pachelbel Bedtime

LOVE THIS! All parents must watch!!

Making new friends

Halloween

I'm behind on blogging and posting pics. Been busy and contemplating. So I'm going to throw some Halloween pics up tonight, and later this week I'll get to some others I've been meaning to post. We had a good Halloween, the kids had a blast. Well Sam wasn't quite sure what was going on but enjoyed the ride anyways!

Our Pumpkins. Rod did the big one and I did the smaller two. Payton requested the wolf.

My mom wanted to see the girls in their costumes. So see drove out after work to see them then headed back home! That's lotsa driving!

All ready to go! Payton and Samara with friends Ethan and Lyndon.

My happy Froggy!

The spoils!