Love

The sermon was good on Sunday. Greg talked about love, how God IS love. If we want to be like God we need to love. Not necessarily love everyone but show love to everyone, to everyone!

I've been struggling, last week was really hard. During the sermon I realized something, as much as I love those around me, I don't love myself. I spend a lot of time ridiculing myself, demeaning myself. God wants me to love myself. Sunday as I sat there I really thought it could be a turning point, I thought if I couldn't all of a sudden love myself I could act like I did, treat myself well and eventually I actually would. It seemed so easy, I was excited. I was going to write this big uplifting blog and challenge everyone to love themselves, or do something nice for themselves. What a difference a day makes.

Love is a big deal, to know people love you, to know God loves you is indescribable. But what if Love isn't enough?

Nothing exciting.

We had our last Midwife appointment yesterday. It's gone so fast. Samara and I each were checked and declared healthy. She weighs 11 lbs 8 ounces now(at 6.5weeks). I looked up Paytons records and at 7.5 weeks she weighed 12lbs. So their growth pattern so far is very similar.

Anyhow, both girls are currently sleeping so I'm going to find something constructive to do while I can.

If your bored check out this game. It's addicting. Thanks Annette!

Just wanted to say hi!

I'm still here and I'm still mostly sane!! haha! Adjusting to having 2 is quite difficult. I haven't figured out how I'm going to make everything run smoothly around here but I'm working on it. Samara pretty much runs the show at the moment, she went from sleeping well during the day to not wanting to sleep, well in your arms she might but not in the bassinet. That makes it rather difficult to get anything else done and my house is suffering. I was frustrated last night because Rod really pitched in and helped me on Sat for a couple hours and we got a lot done, but the clutter was still around and by last night everything looked like we hadn't done anything...Sigh....

Our company postponed their trip as they are concerned about driving through the mountains because the weather is still unpredictable. It's probably good, although I was disappointed because we had such a rough week last week we would have all been tired and that doesn't make a good visit. Hopefully in a month things will be running a little smoother!

So I won't be blogging nearly as much because my spare time is limited, HAHA who am I fooling? What spare time??

Hmmmm......

Payton has a cold. She's being a stinker and not trying to sleep. Then when she did give in and go to sleep(for all of 10min), her cold woke her up!! ARGH!! She is finally(after 10) sleeping again but from the sounds of her breathing will be up again.

Samara decided she didn't want to go to sleep in her bassinet tonight, then when she finally did. She pooped...and she pooped big. After I got her changed ect, she was completely awake again and doesn't want to sleep in the bassinet again. She is now over tired...sigh.....and soon I will be. Rod is trying to convince her the bassinet is good at the moment. She is so little I can't let her cry it out, so we go back comfort and put her back. There has been A LOT of trips to the bedroom tonight, and none of them involve sleep for us! I was seriously hoping for a 9 o'clock bedtime tonight. HAHA dream on girl!

When did bedtime get to be so hard?

****Update****
It's 11:30, she's been out for 15min, Payton is asleep, and I will be as soon as I hit publish and crawl under the covers. Any of you still awake out there please pray for no more pooping! LOL!!

Oh what a night.....

And not in a good way!

Samara didn't have her afternoon nap yesterday and man did she make us pay for it! I'm having a hard time with making sure she gets the sleep she needs(she doesn't sleep well, if at all, when we are out), and making sure Payton gets the activity she needs. Right when Sam is sleeping(mid morning and mid afternoon usually) is right when I would have been making sure Pay was getting outside or out somewhere to play. She needs the activity, she needs the interaction. Sigh.....

New bedtime routines starting tonight to hopefully help save my sanity. Rod's new job started this week, and he will now be getting home an hour earlier!! YEAH!!! We can actually have dinners as a family!! I'm very excited. So bedtimes will be stricter and include both girls. We'll see how it goes and adjust accordingly. I think Samara will be a routine baby like Pay was, like most babies are. Just have to get started on it. I was going to wait until after our company left but there's no time like the present! Needless to say, I won't be going out much in the evenings for awhile!! Call me a homebody!