Tagged

O.K. Last week I was tagged, meaning "I'm it!!" so now according to rules I have to share my ten favorite things. Then tag four others. I've finally finished, so here they are in no particular order....

My 10 favorite things

1. Rod: I love my husband, I love being married. It's fantastic and he is amazing!!

2. Payton: I feel blessed to be Paytons mom. She gives meaning to my life, being a mom is such a joy.

3. God: What would I do without him?

4. My Church: New Heights is my home more than anywhere else. No matter where we meet I feel peace just walking through that door.

5. Family: I have a great loving supportive family, love you guys!!

6. Friends: My "other" family. What would I do without you guys?? Again I don't even want to think about it!!

7. Taking pictures: I love being behind the camera almost as much as I hate being in front of it!!

8. Blogging: I love being able to share some of my world with others as well as get a glimpse into everyone else's world. The community that has formed around this is amazing.

9. Chocolate: This list just wouldn't be complete without it.

10. Sleep: Maybe it's just because I haven't been getting a lot of it, but sleep seems very important to me right now!!

O.K. now for the fun part, tagging others. I hope I don't double tag anyone. If you've already been tagged let me know, some of whom ROD are being party poopers. Anyways, Misty, Sue, Melody and Shannon....TAG your it!!

Then the time came when the risk it took to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.

Anais Nin, found on Susan's site

Payton...Destroyer of sleep......

Strikes again....

The good news is I can feel the tooth coming through so it ****shouldn't**** be to much longer till we're back to normal. In the meantime she's been up almost every hour and for good at 4am. I'm crazy tired and poor Rod has to go work in a couple hours. I got up with Payton in hopes he can steal a few more zzzzz's. I don't want him operating any type of machine too tired!!! I'm not quite ready to make coffee in hopes that she'll go back down for a bit. Maybe I'm delusional but for the moment I like it that way. How can I accomplish anything if I can't keep my eyes open?

On another note, I just noticed my jammies are inside out.....

7:00: I swear, I'm going to lose it, I'm going to go insane. Or maybe the problem is that I already have....

Baby oh baby....

I think Payton is cutting a tooth, she is SOOOOOO cranky. All she wants to do is cuddle. I do love the cuddles but I also have a neglected house to clean.....

fustrated.

I NEED COFFEE!!!!!

I'm tired, oh so tired. After somewhat catching up on sleep at ladies retreat I have had a series of bad sleeps. I had planned on going to bed early last night but then I got sick. When I did finally get to sleep Rod got home(YAH!!!), but he woke me up(not yah!!). Then I had just gotten to sleep when Payton woke up, I think we have another tooth coming through because she has been CRAN-KY!!! Then she was up at 6:30. I put her down on the floor and sat on the couch only to promptly fall asleep sitting up....not good. Despite the incident yesterday, I decided I needed coffee to survive. Only to find we are out of high test, although there is decaf left(a lot of good that would do). I am now going to go search the cupboards again, WE HAVE TO HAVE COFFEE SOMEWHERE!!

Oh dear

My stomach is mad at me. After both checking the date and smelling my cream before adding it to my coffee earlier, I declared it safe for consumption. After pouring my third cup I added the cream and stared at it in confusion....Why is there chunks in my coffee?? I double checked the date, which was the 11th(yes of may), and smelled it again. Still seemed fine, so I opened it a little further and looked fully in. To my horror I found my cream was chunky around the entire edge of the container. I guess when I poured it earlier I just got the smooth stuff, the chucks stayed safely attached to the wall of the container. I thought to myself, uh-oh I'm going to pay for that later, and indeed, I'm hurting. So as a warning to all cream drinkers, I have discovered that spoiled cream can look and taste fine, do not be fooled. From now on any cream I drink will be inspected closely under a bright light.

OUCH!!

And he's off.....

Yup, Rod's gone again. Between me going to ladies retreat and him going on this trip I feel like I havn't seen much of him lately! Oh well, it's *supposed* to be a short trip....we'll see!!

UPDATE:

His flight was delayed for over an hour leaving Vancouver, now he's missed his connection in San Francisco and the next flight to Philly is at 8:30 tomorrow morning. So it'll be at least Tues till he gets home......I shouldn't have said anything!!

Yet another......

Your #1 Match: INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

Your #2 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #3 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

To all the mom's out there......

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!

Hope you have a great day!!

Tagged

So I've been tagged, see Shari's blog for more detail. And yes, I will comply but it may take a few days. I'm frantically getting ready to leave for Ladies Retreat(Rod is watching Payton solo!!! Isn't he wonderful!!) So I'll post when I get back. Have a good weekend all, I'M GOING TO GET SOME STRAIGHT SLEEP!!(hopefully!!) I just know I am going to go through blog withdrawel.....

Anybody watch The O.C??

Anybody want to admit it anyways?? It was good, it was REAL good. Just another prime time soap I know, but there's alot to be said for the odd bit of mind numbing entertainment. I am sooooo hooked!!

Spice party!!

Yes folks, I am having another party. This time it's spices. The company is called Epicure and the spices are really good and affordable. Great dips and dressings as well. I love that everthing is all natural without a bunch of chemicals!! Come check it out even if it's just to sample and visit!!

It's on May 15(sunday), 2:00, at my place!!

Hope to see you there.

Stunning discovery

Babies are not as wonderful as everyone thinks. Whew.... there, now it's out there. Sure they're cute and cuddly(sometimes), and can be alot of fun, but man do they cry and whine alot. Don't get me wrong I love my baby soooo much, she's amazing, but the truth be told I'm glad the "baby stage" doesn't last too long!!

Can you tell she's going through a MOM MOM MOM MOM stage. Only I will do and I'm not getting much else done. I am sooo thankful she wasn't twins or worse!!

Secrets

If you think your the only one in the world with secrets, check out this site I found linked on Shari's blog. Very powerful.

Warning: it's very real and explicit.

My first blinkie!!

Look what I've been doing instead of housework!! I'm so proud!

Darn quizzes, keep me coming back.....

I really liked these ones, probably because they said nice things about me!!

Your Birthdate: April 29

Your birthday on the 29th adds a tone of idealism to your nature. You are imaginative and creative, but rather uncomfortable in the business world. You are very aware and sensitive, with outstanding intuitive skills and analytical abilities. The 29 reduces to 11, one of the master numbers which often produces much nervous tension. This is the birthday of the dreamer rather than the doer. You do, however, work very well with people.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Help

My landlords are finishing the backyard and have said they will make me some flower beds. I have been wanting to plant something lately, I'm not sure why I want to have a garden, the urge has never hit me before. The problem now is that I have no idea how to do anything to do with gardening!! Any suggestions?

Awakening

Payton woke tonight screaming like she was being murdered, I tried to get her to go back to sleep, to no avail. So I went and picked her up, the instant she was in my arms her whole body relaxed, she stopped crying, touched my face and tucked her head into my neck and closed her eyes. I melted, it's so wonderful to be loved like this. To all those people who hear about other people's children and wonder if they should have any, don't decide about what you see or hear, listen to your heart. There's a joy that comes with parenting that is indescribable, a feeling that can't be compared to anything. It's all consuming, passionate and soul wrenching. A little piece of me, my heart, mind, body, and soul is living outside me now. I never knew love could be so big.

So I sat with her curled in my arms, looking at her with awe, she's so perfect. I still cannot believe that I helped create something so beautiful, that I am her Mommy. It's an awesome gift and responsibility that God has given me, he must really trust and believe in me. I talked to her for awhile, telling her everything I loved about her, and as I talked her eyes opened a little and she watched me intently and with such adoration that I began to cry. I love her so much it hurts.

I heard God in this moment telling me that as much as I love my baby, he loves me, and more. I can hear him listing off one by one, everything he loves about me. I could feel him cradling me in his arms, gazing at me with awe. He's asking me why I feel such self loathing, for I am his child and am perfect. Everything about myself that I hate, he loves.

How can I be anything but perfect when God created me?? God wants me to learn how to love myself. I have seen myself now as he sees me, felt the warm fierceness of his love wrapped around me, I have no choice now but to hold my head up with confidence, for I am beautiful.

The Superstore Incident(x2)

Incident #1

Last Monday I was in Superstore buying groceries. Picking out some jarred baby food I accidentally knock one off the shelf. Sweet potatoe plunges to the ground with a nice smash. I step back automatically so the jar doesn't land on my foot instead sweet potato soaks my foot(and my brand new CLOTH flip flops), and the bottom of my jeans as the jar lands. @#*&$@(#). So I'm trying not to walk around because I don't want to a) leave the glass unsupervised b) spread sweet potato all over the store as I walk c) feel the sweet potato as it squishes between my toes. But as there is no one in sight I am forced to venture out to find someone to help. As I'm walking I glance down to see if I'm tracking gunk all over the floor and I notice my foot is no longer orange but red. Crap I'm bleeding. It didn't hurt but looked nasty as it bled a lot and mixed with the sweet potato to form a thick congealed looking gooey mess. Pretty I know. So finally by the cosmetics I find 2 employee's the first takes off to clean the mess. I then ask for something to clean my foot off with. She glanced down and almost freaked out(it did look pretty gross). She started asking if I was ok, can I walk, really really worried. I was fine, embarrassed-yes in pain-no. So she calls first aid(at this point I'm starting to get really embarrassed) who is the assistant manager, whom takes me to the back to check it out(you really can't see the cut at this point.) So here I am sitting in the back room with some strange man washing my foot. I was mortified, I kept thinking "at least I cut my nails". So finally he determined there was no glass in the cut and I was fine(I knew that) and let me go. I ran straight for the tills and got out of there. The cut never hurt,yet developed a nasty bruise all the way around it. I wasn't going to share this story because of my humiliation but after the incident today I felt I should, which leads me to

Incident #2

Back at Superstore, again buying jarred baby food. Being VERY careful not to knock any off. I have the food sitting behind Payton in a cart. As we are shopping she keeps turning trying to grab at the food. Being paranoid I move anything breakable to the bottom level, free from wandering hands. Minutes later SMASH, I can't freaking believe it. I don't know where she found that jar(yes it was sweet potato again), it must have been hiding, but she found it. I stare in disbelief at the floor in front of me and the sweet potato once again wedged between my toes(DIFFERENT fabric sandals @#$%@##*). I wait in horror to see if I'm bleeding, holding my breath. Finally I decide I'm not injured(THANK GOODNESS) and flag an employee working close by to clean up the mess. Quickly(ignoring my soiled foot) I move to the check out. As I am waiting in line I notice the assistant manager on duty, Yup-same one. If I had cut my foot again it would have been the SAME GUY washing my foot. Can you imagine?? As I'm leaving I have to walk by him, I make sure my foot covered with sweet potato is as hidden as possible and make move as quickly as I can without raising suspicion. I think I'm going to stay away from baby food for awhile. Good grief!!

Scary

The big question at bible study today was "how normal is your brain?". Hmmmmm.....not sure I want to go there!!