What fun!!

I was watching Holly today and she had her friend from upstairs over, when they asked if they could go outside it sounded like a good idea. It wasn't untill some time later that I realized the full effect the rain had had on our "backyard in progress" otherwise known as the dirt pile. It was very entertaining and very dirty, Holly was covered head to toe with mud!! You should see the ring she left around my tub!! What fun!!

The dirtier they are the more fun they have!!

Holly after playing in the mud.

It's a mom thing

I have discovered since having a baby that I am the hugest worrywort. Every sneeze or sniffle I worry about her getting really sick. Is this normal, is that normal, is she progressing normally...ect ect ect. Does this obsessive over protective thing get any better??

I think my head would explode

I ended up watching Holly again today. It went not to bad but I swear if I had heard "Chel, look at me" one more time.....

To all Mom's

What are your experiences with teething?? Payton started feeling not herself Weds. I thought she had a bit of a cold until someone said that sometimes when they are teething they show slight cold symptoms. So I've watching her closely but I'm still not sure. She's grumpy and irritable, cuddly, and not as active as usual. She's been refusing her solids for 3 days now(she has never done that since starting solids) but will take liquids. She's been eating less at a time but more frequently. She has been grabbing at her mouth like it's sore and chewing on her fingers, but her nose is congested like a cold?? I just don't know what is normal for teething?? If it is teething how long does this last?? She is going to drive me nuts!!

Confessions

I have a confession to make, I've been watching Desperate Housewives. And I like it. What have I done????

What am I missing?

Anybody else feeling down lately?? I know many people are currently going through, or recently have been through some tough times. Comparatively speaking my problems are small and few, yet I've been healing heavy lately. I feel like I've been getting closer to God, really trying to lean on him. I've been reaching out more, letting go of past issues, really working at strengthening my faith. I should be feeling strong, convicted, whole. Yet I feel as if I'm gaining burdens not losing them. I'm baffled, and it's not as if I could tell you what's wrong because it's not any one thing. It's a feeling, a weight, a sadness that keeps following me around. I'm getting fustrated, maybe I'm not listening, maybe I'm just tired. Why does life feel so complicated??

Prayer Request

Misty was having some really bad head pains last night, they are sending her for a CAT scan this morning. If that doesn't show anything they are going to do a spinal tap. Prayer would be much appreciated. Thanks!!

Kids

Today we have Holly and Andrew. It's a busy day, gives me a bit of a glimpse what it could be like to have 3 kids. Rod took them on a walk to find the creek behind our house, when they got back Andrew came up to me and said excitedly "guess what? We found nature!!!" It was so cute!!

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We made Easter baskets out of rice krispies and filled them with Easter candy, it was so much fun. Andrew first makes one for Mom, then Caleb, then Mikail, then Becka. I then asked him if he was going to make one for himself, "oh yeah" he said. He had forgotten, totally disproves the saying that kids are completely self centered. Kids are(can be) sooooo cute!!!

Carolyn: We had fun and Andrew is welcome back anytime!!

Psalm 42:11

Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.

Like taking candy from a baby..

I bought some Easter candy on the weekend to do an Easter project with all kids around here. I can't stop eating it, apparently I have no shame....

AHHHHH!!!!!!

There is a documentary on CBC about teenage sexuality and it is FREAKING ME OUT. I know I'm jumping the gun but it hasn't been THAT long since I was in high school and oh my gosh things have changed, imagine what it could be like in12 years. AHHHHHHHHH!!!

Family

I've been thinking a lot lately about family. Family to many consists of relatives, these are the people in your life you are bound to by genetics. You can't choose your relatives, you are born with them. I have been blessed with a wonderful "family" whom I love dearly, they aren't perfect but who is? Then there is the family you marry into. Many will say you aren't marrying his family, just him. Don't be fooled, for better or for worse you now have In-Laws. Then there are friends, and contrary to relatives you can choose these. Friends are vital, true friends will stick by you not out of obligation but out of choice. To me, my friends are family. Then extending past friends are my church family, many of my church family are also close friends but it extends farther than that. There are many people whom I don't know well but still feel a closeness and support from. I know if I need anything they wouldn't hesitate even though they didn't really know me. I hope they know that it would be the same way in return.

I used to think I had a small family, I realize now that I have a small number of relatives and a huge family. It's overwhelming really, I am by nature a quiet reserved person who does not put herself on the line. Blogging is a huge step for me as it lets others know how I am feeling. I have been taking steps lately to let others in and accept support. I used to feel like a failure if I asked for help because that meant I couldn't handle it. Now I'm slowly realizing that I'm only human. God did not create me to take on life on my own. I'm learning to let God carry some of my burdens, and help me heal. I'm trying to see myself through his eyes and accept myself as worthy of love, acceptance, and friendship. Why is the basic truth so hard to accept??

What would we do without family?

Feeling small

So after three absolutely horrible nights, with Payton being up and up and up and up, we have decided there is nothing wrong with her and we should not let bad habits form. So tonight when she woke up after a "nap" I went in told her it was still bedtime and left. She's been crying for about 30min now and I'm feeling about 2 feet tall. If you asked her at this very moment she would probably say we were the worst parents in the whole world. Now before everyone comments to tell me that's not true, I know it's not I'm just feeling down about letting her cry that's all. I thought we had been through this but I guess there's always something with kids isn't there?? I don't think I will ever gets used to letting her cry, I hate it.

I am slowly going crazy 123456 switch

crazy going slowly am I 654321 switch

It's what time??? Nasty

My sweet(????) baby will not sleep, we are up again(or is it still), we haven't had a night like this since she was brand new. What is going on?? Teething? Cold? Upset tummy? Growth spurt ? Whatever it is, it is the destroyer of sleep and we are going to be a cranky trio tomorrow!!

OH NO, I HEAR SQUEALING, NOW SHE THINKS IT'S PLAY TIME!

*Yawn*Sigh*Yawn*

How Petty

I had something deep and meaningful in mind to write when I logged on but now all I can think about is how my eyebrows are driving me crazy!!!! I've been meaning to get them done(waxing, threading...ANYTHING) but just haven't gotten to it.

And on another note have you ever noticed that when there is something that you do(for me it's eating excess amounts of junk food) that makes you really annoyed with yourself. The more annoyed you get the more you feel bad about yourself, then instead of stopping what your doing, yup, you do it more. It's a vicious circle.

Another thing, why do designers figure that if you have wide shoulders and big hips you also will have a large chest. I feel that it is rather unfortunate that a woman of my height was not blessed with matching chest. If it fits in the shoulders and hips it sags up top ect ect ect. I tell you it doesn't do much for ones self esteem. No wonder I love shoes, I don't end up crying when I go shoe shopping!!! Don't even get me started on swim suits, I am already starting to dread the coming heat....

Grump

Grump Grump Grump Grump, Complain Complain Complain Complain. Geez I'm in a good mood today. I think I need some happy pills. Good thing it's Friday.

Not to sound crazy but.....

Would the voices in my head please be SHUT UP. Thanx. No seriously I remember a show, I can't remember the name(Melvin's head maybe????), where a group of people were living in this poor guys head always arguing about what he should do. That's what I feel like lately. I have posted previously about having an evil twin who shows up once in awhile but lately it's like she's been cloning herself. It's a full born blowout in there sometimes, in there somewhere is my Godly self who is trying amongst the noise to listen to God and report back to me. She has been rather unsuccessful lately. I guess the negative, mean, vindictive, evil selfs are louder. I've really got to learn to SCREAM.

This really stinking hurts

I woke up this morning with a migraine *YOWZA*


4:00
UPDATE:

Thanks to drugs my migraine is gone(mostly). What would I do without T3's?