DOH!!!

I thought I bought cherry candy canes!!!! What a disappointment :(

Thurs

The countdown is ON!! hehe, the shopping is crazy!! I'm so glad I only have 1(count em) 1 thing left to find. Although it's that last thing that can be ridiculously hard, I mean it is the last thing left for a reason!!

Not a lot to update on my Grandpa, yesterday I didn't get to talk to my mom. Tues my Grandma didn't get to talk to the Dr although Grandpa seemed to me resting a lot more comfortably. I will be talking to mom today and will do an update. Thanks to all who've kept us in their thoughts and prayers.

I had a midwife appointment yesterday, everything still looks good. Although for the last 2 appointments baby has been posterior(back to my back) which has been the preferred position as far as I can tell. That can lead to a rough labor which has me concerned. Good thing it's still early and baby has a lot of time to move but I know this one has spent a lot of time in that position so might be a tad stubborn about it!! Oh well one worry at a time!

Guess I better find some breakfast and get us ready for Payton's music class! Have a good day everyone!

Life goes on

I guess Christmas being soon can't stop life from continuing, bad things still happen. My Grandpa(Mom's Dad) is in the hospital. I don't know the full story but they thought originally it might be pneumonia but it looks like it isn't although there is a black area on his lung they have to check out. There was also something to do with enzymes around the heart, I think it could indicate a minor stroke? Not to sure about that one. The huge worry right now is different though. He had been sleeping a lot lately and I guess his oxygen levels got really really low, he was hallucinating ect because they were so low. So they've had him on oxygen all weekend, and have been giving him a sedative because he was still hallucinating and been difficult to the point of violence. So over the weekend they continued giving him oxygen but somehow the sedative made his body unable to get rid of the Co2. So his organs all started shutting down due to high Co2 levels. They've transferred him to ICU and it's a wait and see how he responds situation. It's times like these I know my mom really struggles with being to far away. It's really up in the air if she'll be catching a flight and heading out there. Any prayer would be much appreciated.

It's starting...

to feel a lot like Christmas!! YEAH!!

Still a lot to do but feeling that good ole Christmas spirit.

LOVE IT!!

Oh yeah, it was snowing earlier, the really pretty soft light will not make a mess of the roads snow. My FAV!!

Projects

Why oh why do I do this to myself?

Project #1: Status 100% done
Project #2: Status 100% done
Project #3: Status 80% done
Project #4: Status 50% done
Project #5: Status 0% done(Sigh)

Full details with pictures after Christmas.

What?????

9 days?? Single digits???

AAHHHHH!!!!!!!!

It's the 15th!!

Power was out for awhile this morning. Payton and I packed up and hit McDonalds, we had breakfast and she played on the playplace. Then we did some errands that needed doing. By the time we went home the power was back on. YEAH!!!

I got to open my first Christmas gift last night, what fun!! I have a new toy to play with, I'm very excited!! It was nice to get out with the girls for a couple hours.

I took an hour nap when Payton was down for hers. I just couldn't keep myself awake. I guess the late nights and push to go go go lately have caught up with me. But I'm feeling better now. Off to paint with my kid!!

Have a great weekend everyone!!

Surprise surprise.....

Another wind warning. More destructive weather heading our way. This is looking like a vicious winter for us this year. I just hope the power stays on!!

Had a massive headache this afternoon, it was making me nauseous. I think it's lightened a bit now...YEAH!!

I did manage to finish writing out all my Christmas cards and besides a couple I don't have addresses for they are addressed and stamped and ready to go. I did 50+ cards this year. Crazy, who knew I knew so many people!! haha.

I have a new favorite song today. Feeling good by Michael Buble. So good! Thanks Danea!

Can we say busy??

Wow, life is busy. I've been trying to get all the last minute shopping done, not so easy with a toddler who doesn't like to shop and a very pregnant belly. I decided today that once I have 2 kids I will be staying home a lot more!! haha!! I think ***Think*** I have only one person left and a couple little things left to find. But there is always something I forget until last minute. Pictures are done, parcels are sent, 2/3 of Christmas cards are done and sent, the tree is up(although I have someone who likes to undecorate it, then redecorate it).

So the to-do list is shrinking!! YEAH!! And my sanity level has remained steady. I don't think I'm going to get any baking done this year, but that's ok because I know who would eat it! I still have a couple projects on the go that are taking up much time but I'm having fun working on them so as long as I can deal with lack of sleep for a bit longer it's all good!

I've been trying to look at everything as something fun instead of something stressful(thanks Liz). Today I focused on the moments when my kid had me in stitches instead of the moments I thought I was going to loose it with her. It made the day much more enjoyable!

I find myself thinking about Mary a lot. How amazing would it be to feel the kicks and wiggles from a baby within and know not only were you carrying a child but a savior, your savior, the worlds savior? To know that this little bundle that was making you so uncomfortable and bringing you so much joy at the same time was going to change the world? Did she smile and rub her belly as Jesus kicked her, did she push little elbows and feet as they poked out at her, was she scared at the responsibility that had been handed to her, did she worry about her abilities as a mother? My guess is yes. I have a hard time thinking about her as a real person, but she was, with real everyday thoughts and worries.

Let's all remember as we approach Christmas this year that we are celebrating a birthday, a very special birthday. The one day when a child was born and everyone on earth was given a gift. One I am so very thankful for. I feel so blessed to have so much. What a wonderful time of year.

Trying to hang on

Last night as I got tired I could feel the overwhelm and frustration slip back in. Somehow I always have so much last minute stuff to do. I think maybe I take on to much, expect to much from myself and then crash when I don't or just can't accomplish what I set out to do. I end up thinking less of myself.

So as my Monday morning hangover fades and the cobwebs clear from my brain I am trying to hang onto the peace I was feeling yesterday. The joy of the season, the reason for celebration, and not get caught up in the have to dos and the need to dos. It seems every time I feel like I've got something accomplished I remember other things that need doing. ARGH!!

Oh yes and I need to remember that I need sleep, please feel free to remind me of that if you see me online late.....

Contentedness

Right now at this very moment I feel so much peace. Greg talked today about true peace being the contentedness you find amongst turmoil. There is still a TON to do around here before Christmas, and a bunch more before the baby comes but you know what? It will all work out somehow. I don't want to waste the moments I have in the meantime worrying about tomorrow. I will accomplish as much as I can everyday and let the rest take care of itself.

Today even though the house is not if perfect shape we are putting up the tree(finally!!!) and getting parcels ready to go. The Christmas music is on and great joy is in the air. This is Payton's first experience with helping decorate the tree, she is SO excited!! She exclaims very boisterously "I DID IT!!" every time she gets an ornament to stay on the tree. So fun!!

Now to get back to the fun.

Update and pics

Well, Payton seems much better than last night although she's still out of sorts, cranky, whiny ect. I haven't tried her on any solids so we'll have to see how the day progresses.

I thought I would post some pics from our adventure on the train to the Santa parade. I meant to post them a long time ago but never got around to it.

Payton was very excited to be on the train!

Matthew and Jordana came with us. Matthew didn't really know what to think!

Santa made an appearance much to the kids excitement

Payton and Mama!!Oh yes and of course Bear!! What a grin!

Best view in the house!! Payton and Dada waiting for the parade to start!

Rudolph nose anyone?

Matthew says "What are you doing to me? You crazy adults!!"

I think this was Rod's favorite. Stargate!! It was fun to see them out.

More Stargate.

Of course I had to take a picture of the Purdy's float....mmmm.....chocolate!!

One of Payton's favorites.

And of course St.Nick himself!!

What a good day!!

What are my chances?

Rod came home sick tues(stomach sick), Payton got sick tonight, looks like we have another flu bug. What are the chances that 2 in a row will pass me by??

.....Sigh......

Busy, oh so busy

So I've been meaning to blog but it's been so crazy around here. I need to get my parcels and Christmas cards ready to send by this weekend. I've had a very busy last few days but have gotten a lot accomplished so YEAH ME!!

I've been working on a couple projects which I'm very excited about but can't give details(which drives me nuts) because that would spoil the surprise for some!! I'll share what I've been up to after Christmas(oh the suspense!!)

I had a mid-wife appointment yesterday. I'm now 28 weeks and have appointments every 2 weeks!! When did that happen?? Anyways, everything looks good, baby is growing and heartbeat has been steady at between 144-150. I'm getting excited to meet this little person, only not yet!! I'm not ready!!

Anyways off to tidy!!

Ugh

Shopping malls and toddlers just don't mix. And she was very well behaved!! I am so tired! Shopping just doesn't hold the allure it once used to.

I did get to pick up her pictures with Santa!! Too cute!!

Happy Birthday Rod!

Happy Birthday to my best friend and husband. I thank God everyday for sending me such a loving, caring, wonderful man to spend the rest of my life with, but am not sure I tell you often enough how much I value you. You are an amazing father and husband, we love you very very much!!

Exposed

Sitting here reflecting, should be sleeping, organizing, something. I had convinced myself that I'm growing, pushing forward, climbing out of the hole I've so often called home. That I'm doing better, maybe the truth is I'm becoming better with dealing with the same old same old. All I know is if I pull up posts from a year ago or more I find things I could have written today. It's the same stuff, my same issue's. That makes me feel so frustrated, daunted, what have I been fighting for? I'm getting by, I've gotten by but I thought it was so much more.

So many changes, big things to come. I don't deal well with change. Never have. I've got to though, those who don't change stay the same. They become rigid and eventually break and blow away in the wind.

Shouldn't be thinking about this right now though. To much else to concentrate on, this is a good way to send myself spiraling. Enough to cause me to sit and listen to Mad world over and over again.

I'm just tired, and isolated. Haven't been out of the house since last sat. I'll feel better after I get out tomorrow. And I do have plans for tomorrow!!

A duck

I signed my kid up for swimming lessons! It's a toddler class with parents still participating. I figured that would be a good way she and Dada can get some one on one time. Apparently she's a Duck! So fun!

Trees

If anyone is interested in getting a live tree this weekend, Shannon George is doing a fundraiser and will go get you a live tree and deliver it to your house.

HEY EVERYONE!!

It's DECEMBER!!

Insert emotion(Excitement, panic, joy, overwhelm, peace, disbelief) here .