Happy New Year everyone!!!

We are home from our "Christmas", had a great time. And are, I believe after Payton is asleep going to bed. What party animals!!

See you next year!!

Car seat and other fustrations

On my last midwife visit I weighed Payton out of curiosity, she was just shy of 40lbs! I realized since then that her car seat is only approved for use of the harness straps until 40lbs, after that she's supposed to move up to using her seat as a booster with the seat belt straps!! She's to little for that!! She's not even 2 and a half yet! Rod and I really don't want her using seat belts yet so I've been looking around. In Canada you can only get approved harness straps up to 48lbs, which would give her until she's at least 3. But it's expensive when you don't have extra cash laying around, but is cost an issue when your child's safety is involved? Nope. And in reality at some point we will need 2 booster seats at the same time, it's just not an expense I was expecting now. Sigh. Just because my toddler is big for her age doesn't mean she shouldn't get to be safe!!

And then with all my looking around I found that my infant seat may have a recall on it, nothing to serious but another thing for me to think about/worry about. I'm going to have to get out the exact manufactors number and dates and give them a phone call to see what's going on with that.

We're still debating stroller issue's as well. Most double strollers have a per seat maximum weight of 35lbs, and we've already found Payton weighs more than than that. She's not a huge stroller fan but does tire easily and need breaks, and there is those times when I NEED her strapped in as she is 2!! So I tracked down a sit and stand stroller that would be compatible with our car seat. Then she could ride if she(or I) needed. The weight per child is higher at 45 lbs, but she's still only 5 lbs shy of that. Will we in reality use it enough to justify the expense? Or should I just resign myself to using the snuggly/sling a lot and have Payton in her umbrella stroller? Then when the baby is bigger we can get another umbrella stroller and clip them together? I just don't know. Decisions decisions....

So we have Christmas(and Christmas dinners!! yum!) the next 2 days which will be nice. Then it will be back to the same old same old for a bit! Full steam ahead in getting this place ready for baby arrival! More decisions on the way! I received a newborn diaper sample in the mail, it's SO SO SO tiny!!! I can't believe it's going to fit on this baby!!So which clothes do I need to get ready?? Blue ones or pink ones?? Guess it will be all of them just in case!!

Oh yeah, I guess we have to come with names too?? Oh my....just so much to think about!

Merry Belated Christmas Everyone!!

I hope everyone had a good Christmas!! Ours was really nice, I'll post some pics when I get motivated!! We spent the night at My mom's and ended up spending all of Christmas day there. We were supposed to go Rod's Dad's but they have the flu so postponed. What a way to spend Christmas! YUCK!! It was nice though, a very relaxed slow paced day. It was so much fun watching Payton unwrap her gifts this year. It took hours for us to finish because every couple gifts Payton had to stop and play!! I don't blame her and I was fine with the slow pace, if she wanted to stop and colour, or do a puzzle, or play with her magtastic set because she was so excited when she opened it I thought that was great. It shows you her excitement and gratitude in a 2 year old way! But it did make gift opening an extended affair!! We all got spoiled(I will be showing off my new toys at some point I'm sure), it was very fun.

Today is pretty quiet unexpectedly as well because we thought we had dinner at my Dad's today but he was thinking New Years day. I think because we usually do boxing day with him but last year we couldn't because we were in Alberta so did New Years day. So Dad was thinking like last year and we were thinking back to the usual day! So our very busy four days in a row got a little quieter! Which is good because it's easier on all of us! Payton really needed a break. We are going to head to Rod's sisters for dinner, which will be nice. And we still have 2 Christmases(and turkey dinners!!) left!! Talk about a Christmas week!!!

Hope everyone is still having some family/relaxing time today, of course you could all be shopping!! I imagine it's crazy out there! Payton is sleeping so I better go tell the wired kids upstairs to try to tone it down! And then get myself ready to go out and maybe do some laundry or something constructive for a few minutes!

So....

Does everyone else have a nice white blanket of snow outside??

Happy Friday everyone!!

I'm so excited!! Rod has a week off after today! It's so nice to have my hubby home for an extended period.

So is everyone ready for Christmas?? We're so not, I hope to be after today though because we have our first family gathering of many tomorrow evening. It would be nice to be able to relax after that point! Hehe...we'll see!!

I stole the Christmas tree decorator(above) idea from Shari's blog. Seemed like fun!!

Not to much to report about my Grandpa, haven't gotten much for test results. They have moved him out of ICU but it seemed like it was because someone else needed the bed worse than that he was ready to move. He's been somewhat more comfortable but hasn't been very responsive and is still not thinking really clearly(was asking about relatives that passed away awhile ago). It's frustrating being this far away(they are in Alberta) because it's hard to really know what's going on. I hope my Grandma and family are hanging in there. The hospital is just where you want to be right now! Praying for everyone with sick loved ones right now, in or out of the hospital!

DOH!!!

I thought I bought cherry candy canes!!!! What a disappointment :(

Thurs

The countdown is ON!! hehe, the shopping is crazy!! I'm so glad I only have 1(count em) 1 thing left to find. Although it's that last thing that can be ridiculously hard, I mean it is the last thing left for a reason!!

Not a lot to update on my Grandpa, yesterday I didn't get to talk to my mom. Tues my Grandma didn't get to talk to the Dr although Grandpa seemed to me resting a lot more comfortably. I will be talking to mom today and will do an update. Thanks to all who've kept us in their thoughts and prayers.

I had a midwife appointment yesterday, everything still looks good. Although for the last 2 appointments baby has been posterior(back to my back) which has been the preferred position as far as I can tell. That can lead to a rough labor which has me concerned. Good thing it's still early and baby has a lot of time to move but I know this one has spent a lot of time in that position so might be a tad stubborn about it!! Oh well one worry at a time!

Guess I better find some breakfast and get us ready for Payton's music class! Have a good day everyone!

Life goes on

I guess Christmas being soon can't stop life from continuing, bad things still happen. My Grandpa(Mom's Dad) is in the hospital. I don't know the full story but they thought originally it might be pneumonia but it looks like it isn't although there is a black area on his lung they have to check out. There was also something to do with enzymes around the heart, I think it could indicate a minor stroke? Not to sure about that one. The huge worry right now is different though. He had been sleeping a lot lately and I guess his oxygen levels got really really low, he was hallucinating ect because they were so low. So they've had him on oxygen all weekend, and have been giving him a sedative because he was still hallucinating and been difficult to the point of violence. So over the weekend they continued giving him oxygen but somehow the sedative made his body unable to get rid of the Co2. So his organs all started shutting down due to high Co2 levels. They've transferred him to ICU and it's a wait and see how he responds situation. It's times like these I know my mom really struggles with being to far away. It's really up in the air if she'll be catching a flight and heading out there. Any prayer would be much appreciated.

It's starting...

to feel a lot like Christmas!! YEAH!!

Still a lot to do but feeling that good ole Christmas spirit.

LOVE IT!!

Oh yeah, it was snowing earlier, the really pretty soft light will not make a mess of the roads snow. My FAV!!

Projects

Why oh why do I do this to myself?

Project #1: Status 100% done
Project #2: Status 100% done
Project #3: Status 80% done
Project #4: Status 50% done
Project #5: Status 0% done(Sigh)

Full details with pictures after Christmas.

What?????

9 days?? Single digits???

AAHHHHH!!!!!!!!

It's the 15th!!

Power was out for awhile this morning. Payton and I packed up and hit McDonalds, we had breakfast and she played on the playplace. Then we did some errands that needed doing. By the time we went home the power was back on. YEAH!!!

I got to open my first Christmas gift last night, what fun!! I have a new toy to play with, I'm very excited!! It was nice to get out with the girls for a couple hours.

I took an hour nap when Payton was down for hers. I just couldn't keep myself awake. I guess the late nights and push to go go go lately have caught up with me. But I'm feeling better now. Off to paint with my kid!!

Have a great weekend everyone!!

Surprise surprise.....

Another wind warning. More destructive weather heading our way. This is looking like a vicious winter for us this year. I just hope the power stays on!!

Had a massive headache this afternoon, it was making me nauseous. I think it's lightened a bit now...YEAH!!

I did manage to finish writing out all my Christmas cards and besides a couple I don't have addresses for they are addressed and stamped and ready to go. I did 50+ cards this year. Crazy, who knew I knew so many people!! haha.

I have a new favorite song today. Feeling good by Michael Buble. So good! Thanks Danea!

Can we say busy??

Wow, life is busy. I've been trying to get all the last minute shopping done, not so easy with a toddler who doesn't like to shop and a very pregnant belly. I decided today that once I have 2 kids I will be staying home a lot more!! haha!! I think ***Think*** I have only one person left and a couple little things left to find. But there is always something I forget until last minute. Pictures are done, parcels are sent, 2/3 of Christmas cards are done and sent, the tree is up(although I have someone who likes to undecorate it, then redecorate it).

So the to-do list is shrinking!! YEAH!! And my sanity level has remained steady. I don't think I'm going to get any baking done this year, but that's ok because I know who would eat it! I still have a couple projects on the go that are taking up much time but I'm having fun working on them so as long as I can deal with lack of sleep for a bit longer it's all good!

I've been trying to look at everything as something fun instead of something stressful(thanks Liz). Today I focused on the moments when my kid had me in stitches instead of the moments I thought I was going to loose it with her. It made the day much more enjoyable!

I find myself thinking about Mary a lot. How amazing would it be to feel the kicks and wiggles from a baby within and know not only were you carrying a child but a savior, your savior, the worlds savior? To know that this little bundle that was making you so uncomfortable and bringing you so much joy at the same time was going to change the world? Did she smile and rub her belly as Jesus kicked her, did she push little elbows and feet as they poked out at her, was she scared at the responsibility that had been handed to her, did she worry about her abilities as a mother? My guess is yes. I have a hard time thinking about her as a real person, but she was, with real everyday thoughts and worries.

Let's all remember as we approach Christmas this year that we are celebrating a birthday, a very special birthday. The one day when a child was born and everyone on earth was given a gift. One I am so very thankful for. I feel so blessed to have so much. What a wonderful time of year.

Trying to hang on

Last night as I got tired I could feel the overwhelm and frustration slip back in. Somehow I always have so much last minute stuff to do. I think maybe I take on to much, expect to much from myself and then crash when I don't or just can't accomplish what I set out to do. I end up thinking less of myself.

So as my Monday morning hangover fades and the cobwebs clear from my brain I am trying to hang onto the peace I was feeling yesterday. The joy of the season, the reason for celebration, and not get caught up in the have to dos and the need to dos. It seems every time I feel like I've got something accomplished I remember other things that need doing. ARGH!!

Oh yes and I need to remember that I need sleep, please feel free to remind me of that if you see me online late.....

Contentedness

Right now at this very moment I feel so much peace. Greg talked today about true peace being the contentedness you find amongst turmoil. There is still a TON to do around here before Christmas, and a bunch more before the baby comes but you know what? It will all work out somehow. I don't want to waste the moments I have in the meantime worrying about tomorrow. I will accomplish as much as I can everyday and let the rest take care of itself.

Today even though the house is not if perfect shape we are putting up the tree(finally!!!) and getting parcels ready to go. The Christmas music is on and great joy is in the air. This is Payton's first experience with helping decorate the tree, she is SO excited!! She exclaims very boisterously "I DID IT!!" every time she gets an ornament to stay on the tree. So fun!!

Now to get back to the fun.

Update and pics

Well, Payton seems much better than last night although she's still out of sorts, cranky, whiny ect. I haven't tried her on any solids so we'll have to see how the day progresses.

I thought I would post some pics from our adventure on the train to the Santa parade. I meant to post them a long time ago but never got around to it.

Payton was very excited to be on the train!

Matthew and Jordana came with us. Matthew didn't really know what to think!

Santa made an appearance much to the kids excitement

Payton and Mama!!Oh yes and of course Bear!! What a grin!

Best view in the house!! Payton and Dada waiting for the parade to start!

Rudolph nose anyone?

Matthew says "What are you doing to me? You crazy adults!!"

I think this was Rod's favorite. Stargate!! It was fun to see them out.

More Stargate.

Of course I had to take a picture of the Purdy's float....mmmm.....chocolate!!

One of Payton's favorites.

And of course St.Nick himself!!

What a good day!!

What are my chances?

Rod came home sick tues(stomach sick), Payton got sick tonight, looks like we have another flu bug. What are the chances that 2 in a row will pass me by??

.....Sigh......

Busy, oh so busy

So I've been meaning to blog but it's been so crazy around here. I need to get my parcels and Christmas cards ready to send by this weekend. I've had a very busy last few days but have gotten a lot accomplished so YEAH ME!!

I've been working on a couple projects which I'm very excited about but can't give details(which drives me nuts) because that would spoil the surprise for some!! I'll share what I've been up to after Christmas(oh the suspense!!)

I had a mid-wife appointment yesterday. I'm now 28 weeks and have appointments every 2 weeks!! When did that happen?? Anyways, everything looks good, baby is growing and heartbeat has been steady at between 144-150. I'm getting excited to meet this little person, only not yet!! I'm not ready!!

Anyways off to tidy!!

Ugh

Shopping malls and toddlers just don't mix. And she was very well behaved!! I am so tired! Shopping just doesn't hold the allure it once used to.

I did get to pick up her pictures with Santa!! Too cute!!

Happy Birthday Rod!

Happy Birthday to my best friend and husband. I thank God everyday for sending me such a loving, caring, wonderful man to spend the rest of my life with, but am not sure I tell you often enough how much I value you. You are an amazing father and husband, we love you very very much!!

Exposed

Sitting here reflecting, should be sleeping, organizing, something. I had convinced myself that I'm growing, pushing forward, climbing out of the hole I've so often called home. That I'm doing better, maybe the truth is I'm becoming better with dealing with the same old same old. All I know is if I pull up posts from a year ago or more I find things I could have written today. It's the same stuff, my same issue's. That makes me feel so frustrated, daunted, what have I been fighting for? I'm getting by, I've gotten by but I thought it was so much more.

So many changes, big things to come. I don't deal well with change. Never have. I've got to though, those who don't change stay the same. They become rigid and eventually break and blow away in the wind.

Shouldn't be thinking about this right now though. To much else to concentrate on, this is a good way to send myself spiraling. Enough to cause me to sit and listen to Mad world over and over again.

I'm just tired, and isolated. Haven't been out of the house since last sat. I'll feel better after I get out tomorrow. And I do have plans for tomorrow!!

A duck

I signed my kid up for swimming lessons! It's a toddler class with parents still participating. I figured that would be a good way she and Dada can get some one on one time. Apparently she's a Duck! So fun!

Trees

If anyone is interested in getting a live tree this weekend, Shannon George is doing a fundraiser and will go get you a live tree and deliver it to your house.

HEY EVERYONE!!

It's DECEMBER!!

Insert emotion(Excitement, panic, joy, overwhelm, peace, disbelief) here .

The Candlelight Parade In Mission is cancelled.

Due to weather.

At our house...

Even Pooh Bear is cool....

Anyone tired of this weather yet? Or tired of hearing about it? I know I'm tired of thinking about it lol!! This snowfall reminds me a lot of growing up in Alberta. With a few key differences. We have hills, lots of them!! Everyone there is used to the snow, is prepared for it, and experienced in driving in it. The tires on my van are not good and I'm nervous about driving in the snow. Thus I haven't been out of the house since Sat. We will be putting on new tires as soon as possible but that doesn't change anything in the meantime. It took Rod more than 1/2 hour to get out of the driveway this morning, but once he did he said the roads seemed fine. There is not school again today so I don't have to worry about digging the van out although I think I'm going to ask Rod to help me clear away some of the snow tonight so that if I can or have to leave tomorrow I can. I was up several times last night having snow and van and driving anxiety. Stupid anxiety. And of course Payton was up like 5 times as well so we are tired in this household today.

I hope the weather ect co-operates with the candle light parade tomorrow night, I'd really like to go and it seems like a good reason to GET OUT OF THE HOUSE!!

Let's see if I can come up with other news.

I think I noticed the baby having hiccups yesterday. I love that.

I'm 27 weeks along now, when did that happen!! I was watching my ticker for so long, I was sure I'd notice when we got into the double digits. All of a sudden I look and it says 87 days to go!! WOW!!

I realized that we haven't taken a single belly picture, by now with Payton I had tons!! Oops!!

Hope everyone has a good day!

Once again

Damomma has captured much of what I've been thinking this year when it came to Christmas and money. A good read here.

UGH!!

I'd rather have snow than a freezing rain warning!! YUCK!!

I finished my Christmas cards last night!!

YEAH!!!

Now just to get envelopes, addresses, and write in them......

Are you ready for it?

The weather channel online is forecasting another 30-40cm of snow starting this afternoon!! 30-40!! What's with that? As much as I love the snow, I'm happy with what we have for awhile! I really do need to dig my van out sometime!

At the least temps look warmer!! Check it out here.

One of those nights

I had a hard time sleeping last night. It took forever to fall asleep due, I'm sure to sleeping yesterday in my migraine induced nap. Then as I lay there listening to the wind and imagining how slippery the roads were going to be this morning I developed anxiety about Rod driving this morning and kept waking up. He's gone now, I made him take my cell phone as his hasn't been working. I pray that he and everybody else out and about today stay safe and sound. Me...I'm staying in.

Double Wammy

Yup, I had/have another migraine today. I'm totally choked. Nothing for months then twice in 2 days. I'm not sure why I'm just grateful I was able to go to bed promptly with both and sleep a bit as that's the only thing that helps when I can't take any good drugs(and I can't). Basically now it's down to a bad headache which I can manage. Stupid head.

Photos

Rod has posted some neat photos from today here.

Lawn chair update

4:30pm

11:30am-ish

I can't believe it's still snowing with such great determination! I ended up with a migraine this afternoon which is frustrating because I haven't accomplished anything(except playing in the snow this morning!!) I have the bathtub full of water in case our power goes out, and a full pot of water simmering on the stove for the same reason.

I still can't be around bright lights or move quickly but I hope to clear some clutter and get my cards done tonight. As I always tell Payton "We'll have to wait and see".

Snow Day!!

Well, this isn't a snow day pic, just thought it was to cute. My little movie star!!


Daddy pushing Payton UP the hill. She kept telling him it was "Too slippery Dada"

Looks like my van likes the snow too!!(Thanks Phil)

Down the street out front the house.

We all love the snow around here! Although Payton wasn't to sure about walking out in the deep snow.

Taking cover from the wind.

What's wrong with this picture?? Maybe the lawn chairs, tarp, and kiddie pool?? Anyone up for a swim?

WOW!!

That's a lot of snow!!!

First snowfall of the season.

And it begins...

We've had some slushy snow at my house today!!!

Snow anyone?

It's very exciting!! Snow in the forecast! Of course I've heard many forecasts telling us to expect snow at different times but that's to be expected!! I was downtown today and when I looked towards the hills the snow line is getting lower!!

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!!

WOW!! I just noticed the Weather forecast on The Weather Network says a low temp of -20 C for Wed!! That's COLD!!!! Brrrr........

Why do I do this to myself?

I started feeling halfway human yesterday afternoon, so last night I pulled out something constructive that needed doing(from the dreaded list) and stayed up WAY to late.

Now I'm exhausted....((((Sigh)))).....

One of those mornings....

I've been not feeling well this week and getting more and more fustrated at what I havn't been getting done. I thought this morning if I sit and make a list of what needs doing by when I'll feel better because I'll feel more organized.

Nope...wrong....Instead it was a sit and look at the list and cry moment. Stupid list. I deleted it.

Christmas stuff, house stuff, baby stuff....and I'm just so tired....Hopfully I'll start to feel better soon and get some energy back. Then everything won't seem so big.

What I really need for Christmas is more space....and organization...and energy.....Sigh.....

Bath time fun.

Christmas Memories

I did a google search about what Christmas means to me. I found many sites with quotes from kids and others about what Christmas meant to them. I was fun to read. It made me reflect about my childhood and Christmas experience.

As far back as I can remember I loved Christmas. My Mom was a single parent(Dad was around...sort of), and I think she worked really hard to make sure I didn't miss out on anything. Looking back I wonder how she managed it all. I hope I can be a fraction that good of Mom to my kids. I loved the decorations, the music, the feeling of joy in the air. I loved baking cookies with my Mom and Grandma, we would make gingerbread houses from scratch! I loved Christmas shopping, the hustle and bustle always excited me(now not so much). I just knew we were going to see family and loved ones we hadn't in awhile. I loved the Christmas Pageant at school and handing out cards to all my friends. We would drive around looking at all the lights, I loved checking out others Christmas trees and spent time looking at all the ornaments. I loved that I got a new dress to wear and that we made gifts for Mom and Dad at school. I loved leaving out cookies for Santa and the anticipation of waiting to see if he was going to come. I remember one night driving home late from a Christmas Eve gathering and I spent the whole drive scouring the sky for a glimpse of Rudolph's glowing red nose, the times we were away from home Christmas morning I worried Santa wouldn't find me. But he always did! I loved going out and picking out our Christmas tree and bringing it home to decorate, carols blaring. Of course now I have a fake tree!! LOL!!

Where was Jesus in all this? Not very present. I wasn't raised in a Christian home. We did though have a variety of Christmas books including the Christmas Story which we read every year. I knew Christmas was Jesus's Birthday but didn't really know the full extent of what that meant. I always had a sense as a child that someone was out there watching me and taking care of me. One morning I watched a televised church program on TV(nothing else on!!) and listened as they talked about how God gave us his only son, and how he watched out for us and took care of us. I thought "oh that's who it is" and they said if you believed you should repeat after them and invite Jesus into my heart, so I did. I didn't realize at the time what that meant, only that it felt right and I knew it was true. So on Christmas I would remember Jesus however briefly and say thank you. I obviously want Jesus to be a much bigger part of our families Christmas.

There was no worry as a child of how we were going to pay for everything, or where we were going to find the time to get everything done. It just happened. I love that for Payton everything is magical with no adult worries, I want that to last as long as possible for her. Eventually she will grow to accept adult responsibilities but not now!! Now I gladly carry all them for her! Which brings me to what Christmas means to me now. But I'm much to tired to write anymore at the moment so that will be part II.

Complaining again

I'm sick. Head achy, congested, tired, Sore throat, achy, yucky sick. :( It shouldn't surprise me as I've been so run down lately. It just hit me suddenly. Payton has also been whiny, mommy attached, and congested. So I don't think she's feeling well either :(

AND

The weather just got nasty!! Raining coming down sideways, wind blowing strong. I DON'T WANT ANOTHER STORM!! I like my power on(whine whine complain complain)

And

I'm out of laundry soap.

Warning: All about Christmas

As I was driving around Sat evening I noticed 3(YES 3) houses with Christmas tree's already up!! So those of us that want to get going on the decorations go for it!! Have no shame!! We aren't the first!!

Do you have favorite Christmas songs? I love so many old carols and new songs but there are a few that take me back to my childhood. Songs I listened to over and over again as a child on my mom's record player(that makes me feel very old). I add new favorites to my list every year but these ones will remain with me forever.

-Roger Whitaker : Momma Mary
-Roger Whitaker : Christmas is here again
-Nana Mouskouri : Old Toy Trains

What about Favorite Christmas Movies? My fav as a child was hands down Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer. I do also love It's a wonderful life.

I've been thinking a lot about what Christmas means to me, past and present. But I need to go clean my kitchen so that will have to be my next post.

What a beautiful day!!

Don't you love it when the weather reports are wrong?? It was beautiful!! No rain, a little wind(which blew away the clouds), and some sunshine!! Imagine that!!

We had a blast! Jordana and Matthew braved the train with us and Rod met us downtown. Payton was beside herself to actually be on a train, she was so worried it was going to leave without us!! Her favorite part of the parade was the dancers, horses, Curious George, and of course Santa!

I have some pictures but they will have to wait until Rod gets home as he took the camera with him.

We are both so exhausted I think tonight will be an early night. I hope this week is a little calmer than last week, I need some catch up rest!!

It's raining....it's pouring.....

the old man is snoring.....


And off we go spend a day downtown Vancouver. Are we crazy? Maybe, but I know for a fact we won't melt!

Grrrr.......

Looks like we won't be going on the train on Sun. I was so looking forward to it. :(

Rod leaves for a work trip that day. He forgot about our plans. It's all booked and they are expecting him Mon morning.

I probably shouldn't be so upset but I've been looking forward to it for so long. I could go without him but we've hardly seen him this week(and he's going to be late again tonight) and then he'll be gone on the trip. I think Payton needs the time with her Dad. And I'm honestly so tired right now I can't even fathom trekking into Van for a day by myself with Payton, especially when it looks like the weather isn't going to be nice.

Sigh.....I think I'm farther into exhaustion, frustration, and overwhelm than I thought.

Well that was fun.....

Well not really!! No power for almost 14 hours with a 2 year old was quite an experience. She thought it was fun for awhile but eventually as the sun went down and she got tired, it just wasn't funny anymore. What do you mean there is no lights? What do you mean I can't watch a show? What do you mean you can't warm up my milk? She was not a happy camper. No power with well water is interesting as well, no power means no water. It's amazing how much more I appreciate being able to flush the toilet, it really is a luxury. I cheered when the power came on.

I'm tired today, this week has been long long long. And it was a short week! Sun we attacked out room, there is still so much to do but at least now we know what has to be done and where everything that needs sorting is. It feels good to have started to make room for the baby. Payton walked into our room on Mon morn and exclaimed "NO MESS!!!", what does that tell you? Mon we went shopping with my mom. It was awesome, we hit Value Village and went from there. She ended up buying a whole bunch of stuff for Payton which she really needed(shoes, coats ect). I can't say how much relief I felt this week when the storm started and I knew I had proper clothes for Payton to wear. Thanks Mom!! You rock. She still needs a really good winter jacket but we have layers for her that will suffice nicely in the meantime. Tues I had Matthew and managed to do a bunch of organizing, wed was the power outage, yesterday I had Payton's Musikids class and the dentist( :p). It's been a go go go week and I'm feeling it. I don't so how it's going to slow down any either being that Christmas is so close! There will continue to be tons that needs doing.

I feel so pregnant. I don't remember feeling so pregnant so early last time. But I tire so easily and feel it in my back and belly already when I need to slow down. Sleeping the last couple nights has already gotten uncomfortable. I feel way bigger at this point than last time but have actually gained less, maybe it's just all out front, I'm not sure.

Well, I think that's enough for whining! I really am looking forward to Christmas and all the festivities that surround it. I love spending time with family and friends. I love looking at the lights and listening to carols. I love the Candle Light parade. We're taking the Santa train into Vancouver and the Rogers Christmas parade on Sun!! I'm very excited to take Payton on the train, I think she's going to have so much fun!! I'm looking forward to making my Christmas Cards. I'm looking forward to the LaFarge Christmas Party, Payton had a blast last year, she's so fun to watch! I've been having fun looking at all the toys, Payton is to young to be asking for anything specific so we get to check everything out and decide what we want to play with, just kidding!!(but we will play!!)

I could go on, but now I'm just killing time and this post has gotten long! I need to go tidy while my kid is sleeping and I have an ounce of ambition left!!

I want to feel Christmas

I want to feel Christmas

by Third Day

I want to feel Christmas
how it used to be
with all of it's wonder
falling on me

the season has felt so empty
oh for quite awhile
I want to feel Christmas like a child

I want to see snowflakes
fall to the ground
my brothers and sisters
all gathered around
singing away in a manger as we sit by a fire
I want to feel Christmas like a child

It's been so long now I can't say,
just when I lost my way
and I'm going back to how it was
like a child
when this day ment everything
we spent our time remembering
the baby child born for us

it's all about Jesus
asleep in the straw
sent from this king
the savior for all
so I don't need bells to be ringing
because I'll join with angels singing Gloria

And I can feel Christmas like a child
I want to feel Christmas like a child(repeated)



Note: I couldn't find the lyrics online anywhere so I typed them out while I listened so they may not be exactly right.

How in the world????

Did we get so much STUFF?

And how did we fit it all in our bedroom?????

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyone want/need?

A cat scratcher/bed in excellent condition?
An almost full bag of Purina Cat chow?
A hardly used foot spa?
A wind up baby swing?

Today.

I love it when the sermon at church seems to talk directly to you. I dreamt last night our baby was stillborn. It was a beautiful baby girl, I can remember her face vividly. Dark hair and perfect features. I woke shaken and had a hard time shaking off the fear and pain, it threw my whole morning off. Of course baby was quiet for awhile and I just had to wake the little one. A few swift kicks later and I felt a small measure of relief and was able to go about my morning. The message today spoke of trusting God even when your world seems in chaos and letting go of the chaos. I was able to give the fear that had been gripping me this morning back to him, trust that he will take care of this baby, that he is best equipped to take care of this baby.

It is of course every mothers worst fear that something bad happen to their children, but it doesn't have to be an all consuming fear.

Trust, it brings peace.

It's the weekend

I LOVE WEEKENDS!!

And it's a long weekend!

Rod's home.
I got to sleep in.
Payton's playing with her Dad.

So nice!

Keep on Keeping on

I'm a naturally shy person, I tend not to initiate conversations, I shy away from making phone calls. I isolate. It stems from low self esteem and non-existent self worth. I instinctively believe that people don't really want to talk to me, or spend time with me so I shouldn't bother them, I shouldn't take up their time. I'm not exciting or interesting, I'm just me. Sometimes I catch these thoughts in mid-think and try to correct them, sometimes I let myself spiral into somewhere not very friendly.

It's no secret I have suffered from depression. Am I there now? I don't really know. I'm tired, emotional and scattered, but I'm also pregnant. I guess we'll know after delivery. I do know that I'm tired of just scrapping by, of working so hard just to stay level.

I've been thinking lately about how my struggles have affected not just me, but those around me. My mom's been there so she understands but I know she worries, Rod is wonderful and doesn't think I'm crazy at all(LOL). I hope I am a stable enough mom for my kids. That is my biggest desire, to be the best possible mom, to give them the best possible start in life.

Do the others in my life know how much I care about them? Friends and Family? I haven't shown support very much recently, haven't reached out. My security zone is not very big and venturing outside it is very scary. Putting myself out there just feels so hard. So my relationships suffer. I haven't been the friend I want to be, the person I know I am. I care so deeply about so many people yet don't let them know. I worry about them, love them, but from afar. And that's not fair to them. I can't expect them just to know how I feel, especially when I'm so good at hiding how I feel.

I have a lot to work on, but I guess we all do. In truth me and my issue's are just a variation of normal. I think Christmas is a good time to reflect and reach out, to try to show others love. To remember what it's all about and let that reflect in my life.

So to all those wonderful people in my life, family, new friends, old friends, please know you are much loved and thought of on a daily basis. Your presence in my life is so appreciated. I love you.

I like peanut butter......

A LOT!!

Christmas is Coming!!

It really is!! QUICKLY!!!! Yes, I'm excited but ARGH I'm also overwhelmed. So many things to do and think about. Even you who are in denial about how close it is can't ignore how little time there really is left to get anything done.

47 days until Christmas
32 week/work days
14 weekend days
7 weekends

So how many shopping days is that? How many days with my husband home? How many of those days are going to be booked with parties and outings ect? OH MY!! At Christmas I'll be 31 weeks along!! PANIC PANIC PANIC. K, breathing...one thing at a time!!

I guess it's time to stop thinking and start doing.

Mad World

I finally FINALLY got Matthew to sleep. I need to eat, I need to shower. Of course I clean up after Payton, check my email, download a song, and he's awake. That was a shorter nap than even Payton used to have.....Sigh.....

Just found this song remade by Gary Jules. I really like it. It's very melancholy though. Which suites my mood I guess.


Tears For Fears

Mad World


All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces

Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere
Going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression

Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I´ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
´cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It´s a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Mad world
Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday

Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me

Now the teacher tells me what´s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me

And I find it kind of funny...

Terrific

*****Sigh*****

I found out yesterday I didn't have to pick up Andrew. Ok, great chance to get some running around done(which includes getting my license replaced as I can't find it). Spend a day out, just me and my kid!!

Last night was horrible, I wasn't feeling well, didn't get much sleep. Then this morning Rod calls. The car died on his way to work. Then his phone died. And my BCAA coverage expired because I have a new Visa # and forgot to tell them. ***Sigh*** Good thing we have some wonderful friends. Thankfully he has made it to work as he managed to call there before his phone died and someone went to get him. The car is still somewhere on the road though. I think he and Phil are figuring that out. Trying not to worry.....

This was the first month in a long while that it looked like I wasn't going to have to stress about paying the bills now there's something wrong with the car. What are we going to do without the car? I have no stinking clue. I'm trying so hard not to stress.

****Sigh****

YEAH!!!

I figured out the design for my Christmas cards!!!

Now I just have to make them......

Ever wonder what your Husband does when your not at home?

I was out last night and I came home to this on the computer screen. Rod was playing with the camera(long shutter speeds and light).

Isn't he sweet?

A breed of their own....

I am talking about toddlers. They are an interesting, amusing bunch. Life is never dull when you have a toddler in the house. I just never know what she's going to come up with next and she leaves me in stitches daily. Of course she also has the capability to drive me absolutely insane.

Her idea of cleaning lately is pushing everything to me with her feet so I can pick it up and put it away.

Yesterday Andrew was trying to build a tower out of blocks and Payton wanted to "help" only her help lead to the toppling of the tower every time. The destruction is her favorite part so she accidentally on purpose managed many topples. Andrew was getting a little frustrated so I instated a no touching rule. So then she "tapped" it with her toe. I explained that touching included the use of any part of her body. So then she was trying to blow down the tower(think 3 little pigs), that wasn't working so she got really close and started "ah ah ah CHOOing" at the tower!!. She's a resourceful and determined little girl. Exasperated sigh....

While eating cheerios yesterday she decided to see how far she could fling the milk spilt in her tray. It was all over the floor, couch and blanket(on the couch) before I could stop her.

This morning while eating I was watching her only to notice she was taking mouthfuls of milk, opening the neck of her shirt and spitting it down. I asked her if she was spitting milk down her shirt and she nodded and grinned at me happily.

She has started telling Knock Knock Jokes. Yes!! Already!! They generally consist of "Knock Knock, Who's there?, ME!!!" (Laughing wildly) Variations include "ME AGAIN!", and "Orange"(copying Andrew).

She has a fascination with the toilet paper, specifically unrolling it....

She has started dressing herself. If you see her one day with her shirt on backwards or inside out it's because she put it on all by herself and was so proud I couldn't change it!

Scientists 'discover cause of cot death'

Scientists believe they have solved the mystery of cot death, the leading killer of children in their first year of life.

A study of victims of sudden infant death syndrome (Sids) has revealed that they had an abnormality in the brain that prevented it realising their bodies did not have enough oxygen.

More here.

To echo Liz....

What IS up with the upside down trees this year?



I googled it and came up with some info. Apparently it was a 12th-century tradition in Central Europe. They are either attached to the ceiling or are weighted at the base. And one of the selling features is that it leaves more floor space open for gifts and better displays ornaments.

I don't know, it just looks wrong to me.

The picture came from the Canadian Tire website here.
More info on this here and here.

A few pics of our Halloween

We went to a friends Church for a family fun night. Payton had a blast. And when she realized they were giving her "treats" well that just added a whole new dimension!! hehe. Then we went to Grandpa and Grandma's house. It was a nice night.

Payton in the bouncy castle. She was in that multiple times!! Oh yes and the first thing she spotted was the face painting and quite enjoyed being a kitty!

"Look what they gave me Mama!!"

In her Tiger costume growling at mom.

Do I really have to sit here?

So apparently I'm blogging again.

I've been doing a lot of thinking since all the drama started last week. I discovered many things. One of which is I hate drama. I've often said that my life is boring, and it usually is, but I'm not complaining. I like it that way. The everyday life, the routine, I know what to expect. I'm not big on change. I don't envy people who never get a rest, who are always surrounded by action and drama. The drama brings to me a sense of chaos, and all that does is stress me out.

Another thing I've discovered is I care what people think about me. Not to the point I would change anything about myself to make others happy, but that it really bothers me when people think bad things about me. I don't expect everyone to like me, I personally don't care for a lot of people, but that they think really horrible things about me upsets me. What's worse is when they believe me capable of doing mean things to others. That is so far from who I am that it really weighs on me. I know the person who did the accusing really believes she is right and I think that bothers me more than the actual accusation. I'm going to have to let that go and move on, not everything gets resolved. The friends and family who really know me, whom I really trust know the truth without question. I know I didn't do it, and God knows, and that's what really matters. I'm done with this topic now.

I've also discovered that I really like blogging. I missed it and was really upset that I didn't feel safe putting myself out there anymore. I thought about stopping altogether, about deleting my blog. I debated making my blog private so only approved people could view it. What I have decided is that I'm going to shake off the negativity that has been surrounding me about the blogging world and get back to normal. I don't want to let one bad experience ruin it all for me. I will call it a learning experience. I think I will change my settings to allow comments again although I think I will enable comment moderation for awhile. So your comments will have to be approved by me before they are posted.

I hope everyone has a good and safe Halloween!

Truman

I found a blog about a baby born at 23weeks gestation on Aug 8. He is now more than 2.5 months old and is doing great!! It's totally amazing!

It just really struck me today as I am 23weeks along as of yesterday!

This is Truman about a week after delivery!! Look how tiny!!


The website is here.

Hands

Hands (Christmas Version)

by Jewel


in the end only kindness matters
in the end
ah mmmmmmmmm ah

if I could tell the world just one thing
it would be that we're all okay
and not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
and useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I'll gather myself around my faith
for light does the darkness most fear

my hands are small, I know
but they're not yours,
they are my own
but they're not yours,
they are my own
and I am never broken

poverty stole your golden shoes
it didn't steal your laughter
and heartache came to visit me
but I knew it wasn't ever after
we will fight not out of spite
for someone must stand up for what's right

'cause where there's a man who has no voice
there ours shall go singing

my hands are small, I know
but they're not yours,
they are my own
but they're not yours,
they are my own
I am never broken

('cuz) in the end only kindness matters
in the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

my hands are small, I know
but they're not yours,
they are my own
but they're not yours,
they are my own

my hands are small, I know
but they're not yours,
they are my own
but they're not yours,
they are my own
and I am never broken
we are never broken

we are god's eyes
god's hands
god's hands
we are god's eyes
we are god's eyes
we are reflections of god
(god's hands)
we are reflections of god
(we are god's eyes)
we are reflections of god

I've been attacked.

I've been accused of leaving mean and hurtful comments on someones blog anonymously. And it wasn't a friendly accusation either. I know it shouldn't bother me as much as it does, I know I didn't and would never do that. And those who know me know I wouldn't do that either but it leaves me feeling hurt and angry. All I have ever been is supportive and friendly on any one's blog, I've done nothing to provoke an attack and yet here I am with a finger pointed at me.

I really hope the person whose blog it is doesn't believe me capable of that, even though I only know her through blogging.

I have disabled comments because I don't want any accusations starting here, I don't want to fight about it let alone a public fight about it. I think I'm going to step back from blogging for awhile, it just doesn't feel safe right now.

I know the truth. But it still hurts.

Just for fun.

1. What is your occupation? Proud Stay at home Mom. Or as Shari puts it "Domestic engineer, overseeing prototype research and development"
2. What color is your underwear? Black
3. What are you listening to right now? HAHA!! Christmas Music(Third Day)
4. What was the last thing you ate? A cookie(Halloween sugar cookie..mmm)
5. Do you wish on stars? Nope
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Just one? Um..My fav at the moment is teal or aqua with brown.
7. How is the weather right now? BLAH!!...
8. Last person you spoke to on the phone? My Mom
9. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Stole it from fellow bloggers, all of whom I like!
10. How old are you today? 27
11. Favorite drink? Milk, Latte's, or White wine(or a made by Liz chocolate martini!)
12. Favorite sport to watch? I'm not really a watch sports on T.V. person but I do like to go to football games.
13. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes
14. Do you wear contacts or glasses? Yes(just not at the same time!)
16. Favorite food? Sushi, specifically Sashimi!!
17.What was the last movie you watched? HAHAHA Elf!!( I blame Andrew)
18. Favorite day of the year? Christmas Day
19. What do you do to vent anger? Cry, Isolate
20.What was your favorite toy as a child? My cabbage patch, mostly I played outdoors though.
21. Fall or Spring? Fall, My perfect day is clear, cool, crisp, with a slight breeze.
22. Hugs or kisses? Both!
23. Cherry or Blueberry? Cherry
24. Do you want your friends to answer this? If they want to
25. Who is most likely to respond? ???
26. Who is least likely to respond? Don't know
27. Living arrangements? Basement Suite
28. The last time you cried? Monday
29. What is on the floor of your closet? Question is what isn't? Sigh....
30. Who is the friend you have had the longest? Rod, Misty
31. What did you do last night? Sewed and Watched T.V.
32. Favorite smell? Vanilla, Rod's cologne
33. What inspires you? Jesus, my kid, Rod
34. What are you afraid of? Clowns, realistic looking dolls, puppets
35. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? Cheese & Spicy
36. Favorite car? Hmm....I like 70's corvettes with racing stripes
37. Favorite dog breed? Wouldn't say I had a Favorite.
38. Number of keys on your key ring? 4
39. How many years at your current job? 2 years 3 months
40. Favorite day of the week? Sunday
41. How many provinces have you lived in? 2
42. How many cities have you lived in? 3
43. Ever driven a Motorcycle or Heavy Machinery? Driven? No, been on? Yes.

For my Friend.

Happy Birthday Mandy!!!

Hope it's a good one!!

Update

Just thought I'd let everyone know that the Midwife finally called today. We were out so she left a message to let me know that everything came back normal on the ultrasound results, that everything looked good!!

Yeah for a healthy baby!!

Yup, definitely a Flu.

Rod woke up with it this morning.

Maybe

It is a flu? Payton was sick again this morning. Obviously her tummy is still upset. She didn't eat all that much yesterday but what she did stayed down. Seems to be keeping water down though.

So I'm on the puke watch again, making sure she gets enough fluids.

Sigh. This is not what I had in mind to do on my day off!!

Oh well, the joys of motherhood!

Today

We seem to be puke free at our house today! THANK GOODNESS!!

Now to just try to catch up on sleep and cleaning.....

Rod has some good quotes here.

I hate puke.

I hate feeling like I have to puke, I hate puking, I hate watching other people puke, and I've now learned what I hate the most is my kid puking.

It finally happened, Payton threw up................a lot. It hit all of a sudden just after 5 and as any of you with kids know, was not fun. She's sleeping now and there hasn't been any "activity" in over an hour and a half. The floor is washed, the bathroom is cleaned, the clothes and towels are in the dryer, I'm not sure what to do with the couch cushion cover so I am going to figure it out tomorrow and let myself try to sleep.

I think it must have been something she ate although I can't figure out what. She had no other symptoms and seems to be over the worst already so it doesn't strike me as a flu.

I'm exhausted. Going to bed.

Fall colours

Listen to me whine.

Payton is sleeping. No I'm not going to nap today although I'm sure I could. I ended up with a short nap yesterday, after only 30min I was awake. Still tired but awake. Then last night I had another restless night. I couldn't get to sleep, then when I finally did I just couldn't stay asleep, I was up 4-5 times. So when I got up this morning I felt frustrated and exhausted. I cancelled my plans for this morning because I just couldn't muster up the energy to get us ready to go. We played for awhile then went outside and played some more but that's all I could handle. I'm going to try to get some tidying done, and have a shower, and hope that if I don't nap maybe my sleep will be better.

Yeah it's Fri!! It looks like another busy weekend but at least Rod is home. I love weekends!!

My baby girl

I can't beleive you've gotten so big!! When did that happen?

Another Day

My Midwife was worried about me being tired already. She told me about a herb to help calm my mind before bed and asked me to take naps when I can and get as much rest as possible. So Payton is napping and I'm going to lay down for my prescribed nap. I'm torn though because my house is a mess, somehow having Rod home didn't mean I got anything extra done, I actually got less done!! My house really needs some TLC but the Midwife said that my rest right now is more important.

I also have a headache which I hope will die down if I rest and won't turn into a migraine.

I'm so excited to have a wiggly baby!! I need to come up with a name for the babe, it just can't be it or he/she anymore. I think I was holding out with nicknames this time until I knew the sex. Payton was Little one. And there are just to many beans and peanuts. Hmmmm....

Alrighty off to bed with me.

So...It's a......

Surprise!! Yup, she wouldn't tell us!! So your guess is as good as ours!! hehe. I'm not sure if she couldn't or just wouldn't tell. When we asked she made up about 3 excuses(it was to early, the baby was in a difficult position to see, and the baby had been so wiggly she couldn't get a good look) in a row then left quickly.

Oh well, I'm a little disappointed about that but not to bad. I just don't really like unisex clothes so I won't get to do to much shopping!! And I guess we'll have to pick out names for both, it was hard enough coming to a decision about 1 name last time!!

The good news is as far as I can tell everything looks good. Baby had a good strong heartbeat and was wiggling around so much that it was hard for her to get pictures and measurements. I figure that has to be a good sign. Well as far as it being healthy goes I guess but does that mean I'm going to have another very very active kid on my hands? Mind you Payton was never overly active during Ultrasounds or really really active period when I was pregnant. She was just very quick to tell you when she didn't like something!

I wasn't over impressed with the technician we got. Not only would she not tell us the gender but didn't say much of anything. I didn't leave feeling very reassured. I had to ask a lot of questions before she would give us info. I was really hoping to hear from her that everything looked good. I'm thinking it was just her personality to be quiet but I tell you her bedside manner could definitely use some improving!! The midwife said that if anything was wrong she(the technician) would have called in another technician to get a second opinion so she figures everything must be good. She is going to call me when they get the report to tell me what it says so I won't wonder for 4 weeks!!

Nerves

Ok, now I'm nervous. I so want everything to go well tomorrow. Girl or Boy?? Doesn't really matter, that's just bonus material. I've been feeling kicks and movement, I know that's a really good sign yet I still find myself thinking what if I'm imagining it? What if it's uterus twinges or something else? So silly I know there's just so many other things that could be wrong. I feel like my pregnancy innocence has been stripped from me, I can't seem to be just excited and happy, there's always worry there as well. I pray yes, but not only for the babies health but also that whatever happens it be God's will. What if it's God's will to take this baby too? ARGH!! I know how paranoid that sounds.

I can't wait to see my baby!! I really am excited!! Ultrasound appointment is at 1. I'm not supposed to pee after 11 mean while drinking liters of water. What kind of torture is that?

I don't know when I'll get to a computer put I'll update as soon as I can!!

It's Tuesday

******Sigh******

Last Chance!!

Well my gender poll went A.W.O.L . I do remember that 61% of you thought I was having a boy, 33% thought girl and 6% of you were unsure.

As my Ultrasound is in 2 days I thought I'd re-post the poll. So last chance for anyone to change their vote!

Anyone want some help deciding?? Well this pregnancy has been a lot like the one with Payton. Differences being I was actually sick at the beginning of this one(keep in mind it was twins then though), I am more tired now(in the middle) than I was with her, and I haven't had near as many cravings.

Here are some gender predictor stuff I've found online, what they say I'm having and whether it was correct with Payton.

Chinese gender chart

says Boy
was right with Payton

http://parenting.ivillage.com/ttc/ttcsigns/0,,j736,00.html
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Another Chinese gender chart

Thought this one was different when I looked at it until I read you need your lunar age on this one which is about 2 years different, so I added the years and re looked and it was the same as the one above. They have a calculator to make things easier on you.

says Boy
was right with Payton

http://www.obfocus.com/calculators/gender.htm
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Heart Rate(don't believe this old wives tale at all but am including it anyways)

Has always been over 140 this time

over 140- girl
under 140-boy

Was right with Payton
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Dad's weight

gaining too-boy
not gaining-girl

Rod isn't gaining would say girl
Was wrong with Payton, he gained right along side me last time!!
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Online quiz

gave me a 50% chance of having a boy or girl
Same when I plugged in my info for my pregnancy with Payton

http://pregnancy.about.com/gi/dynamic/offsite.htm?site=http://www.childbirth.org/articles/boyorgirl.html
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Different online quiz

73% chance of girl!!
Said 53% chance of Boy with Payton

http://www.amazingpregnancy.com/oldwivestales/
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How about Mothers intuition?

I was positive I was having a girl with Payton and was Correct.
I was positive I was having a boy with our last pregnancy which we lost.

This time I'm not sure. I keep waffling back and forth. If I was forced to guess I would probably say girl.

So well see!!

The things that excite me....

MY KID JUST POOPED ON THE POTTY!!!!!

She told me she had to go(and she was in a pull-up as we were just heading out) we sat on the potty and she pooped!! All on her own!!

I'm SO excited!!!

The Ones I Love The Most.

Payton my baby?? nope, toddler?? nope.....puppy???

My child has taken to running around panting and giving many many "puppy" kisses.

Have you been licked by your child this morning??

It finally happened......

She peed on her bear. Standing right in front of me looks down, a stream is landing squarely on poor bear. She just keeps going until I say "STOP!! Your peeing on bear!!" So she finishes peeing on the potty while I'm using bear to clean the rest of the floor.

And now she's upset that bear is having a bath. Poor poor bear!!

How about this one?

I think I see more similarities in this one??

What do you think?

I must not look like any celebrities because I don't think I really look a lot like any of the ones it gave me. What do you think? Maybe I'll try with a different picture. It's fun though!

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Don't Forget!!

Season premiere of LOST is on tonight!!

I'm very excited!!!

Me and my babe.

I change my mind

Ok, it just might be a little late for that but I still have to say...

WHY WOULD ANYONE IN THEIR RIGHT MIND HAVE 2 KIDS!!!

Alright we will chalk 2 up to ignorance. But then why do people have more than 2?? WHY WHY WHY WHY?????

I have Matthew today. Can you tell how it's gone??????


CRAP!! he's up again.....

*****Sigh*****

Edited to add that he's not the only problem, I think they have combined forces to see who can make me cry first......

Title, I can't think of a title.....

I can't believe it's Monday already. Where does the weekend go?

Friday I just relaxed with my hubby until I got a call to go on a late night coffee adventure. Sounds exciting doesn't it? Hehe...I was just happy to be able to be there.

Sat we cleaned house, no fun but necessary. Payton had a birthday party then friends we hadn't seen for a long time came over and we had a great visit, so much fun. We pulled out the game cube wiped the dust off it and played. We girls kicked some cockiness out of those smug boys, it was too fun.

Sun after church we went to visit Rod's Dad and Step Mom as they had just gotten back from their vacation. They were in London, Scotland, and Ireland, for a month. They had a good time but were glad to be home. We had a good visit, I love watching Payton interact with them. I am so thankful Payton has such awesome Grandparents.

Today I was so stinking tired. I've been tired again lately. Last night I couldn't sleep, I was so restless. And when I finally did sleep Payton was up as she had a restless night as well. ****Sigh**** We went for coffee this morning but between my fatigue and Payton's crankiness I don't think we were very good company! We'll have to try that again soon! Hopefully tonight is better.